Rachel [ miri 2 ]

2026-05-07 05:23:06 AM

Good morning!

Are you interested in a good paying, government job?

Do you like travel on you "off time"?

Do have what it takes to intently work in the security industry so that we can reduce shoplifting and ensure proper electronic inventory processes?

Do have desire to reform the prison and jail systems to be 100% solitary confinement "doing time", so that we can reduce the jail fraternity vibe? to futher prevent crime? ( the party is not a deterent theory )

Join the U.S. Marines! Don't join the Army with it's humanitarian "on the ground" mission to help hurricane disaster scenarios. We'll be stopping sporting events so we can procure their hotel rooms in an effort to "toughen up the civilian population" so that they will walk to sporting events, bars/pubs/taverns, restaurants, music concerts, waterfront "celebrations".

Well, perhaps there is some music to transcribe now? It's all so vitual it's killing me! I need a LEGO SET AND DVD COLLECTION NOW! I'm climbing the walls with hate.

Do I look like I am lying?

Rachel

2026-05-06 06:25:24 AM

It is against my RELIGION to deploy third party advertising on my website. I was raised in a strictly ATHEIST, Sober and Advertising Free household.

I cannot change my past. These are strongly held values with me, whether my family was lying to me or not.

I happen to like my quirky music. Sam Burton and I had a phone call a couple years ago where he had my website on his screen, the one with the 3x20+ tiles and he was going through them and expressing how he liked my music. First time that ever happened to me with anyone.

Rachel

2026-05-06 05:43:18 AM

The word "girl" was never used in my household environment.

Parents didn't use it. First wife didn't want to be called a girl. None of my partners or girlfriends really. I don't even know how to say the word girl.

Rachel

2026-05-05 23:18:55 PM

"We got a sick cat coming in." - Claire Danes in T3

It sounds like a hairball.

I KNOW WHAT A HAIRBALL SOUNDS LIKE!

Well, take Hercules back to the exam room. I've got a situation brewing here....

2026-05-05 23:12:30 PM

What is that? It smells like a wet dog.

2026-05-05 23:09:28 PM

The dog walkers.

The dog sitters.

The dog bathers.

The stop frame animation picture takers.

The key grip.

The post production team that marks up every frame.

The editorial review board.

The security team at Subway.

2026-05-05 08:11:16 AM

They have some torture thing happening with me today. Not a good day to participate in much of anything.

Rachel

2026-05-05 04:59:12 AM

2026-05-05 04:49:05 AM

There will probably be some celebration thing downtown. Another thing to avoid. It's not big enough.

2026-05-05 04:38:51 AM

To publicly share my thoughts upon waking this morning, just to clarify my position on this again, because wow, it seems like a huge world deal....

It feels like more humilation to put me on a stage with just about anyone. It's like society is teasing me, tempting me or just plain forcing me to be humble to the point of continuing to be some bully target. I'd have no authority over anyone. You'd put some music up on a stand and I'd play my part with my old friends. It's like yuck. Like Sting talks of the Police reunion in 2007. Not that I follow him that closely. It's not like we have toured together for years with all the people following him to every concert around the world.

Just to make sure.

My health condition is concerning, but I am clueless about it. I'm sure that is some kind of show. What can I do?

Again, if I am not the big boss from now on, I'm not doing it. I'll do what I can to get the best little retirement situation I can. Anything less than the marine platoon and these fighter jets as my escort is an insult to me. Yes, I take it personally. I know it's just work, but there is no way to seperate it out. I'm sick to death of the threats of people bossing me around.

The little zen warrior teacher thing is amazing. A dream come true. This could be amazing! I may wind up crippled, dead or worse! May just be an average ending like George Burns at 101. I simply have no idea. But with this escort, I'll be as sane as I can be and feel supported for once in my life.

This idea of my showing up at the Navy Band in Memphis. OH, Rand is here sitting next to Ann. Isn't that cute? I was just living my life like a normal person.

And still am. But I'm just crazy high level.

I love telling my story. This stuff obviously goes through my entire life, and then some. We're obviously crazy advanced technical beings. If we can do a good transfeminine surgery, we'd likely be able to by now. I have no evidence and it's scary and all.

On my screen to the right is this Ayn Rand: The New Left business. On my left screen is the Wikipedia page on "New Left". Not sure how many planes we have. How much fuel. Bob Mintzer playing a solo on Lazy Day on the speaker. This is completely wild and I'm just sitting here.

Rach

2026-05-05 03:54:45 AM

2026-05-05 03:52:39 AM

Good morning!

Just iterating the day on the T-14 business. I think I have some paperwork to do this morning.

Rachel

2026-05-04 08:43:41 AM

Just furthering this Haber-Bosch idea one further....

2026-05-04 05:11:43 AM

* grab HONK and Diane Keaton along with that big transistor radio thiny

"Yeast for baking/brewing is produced in industrial fermenters." -them

"From what? That's like me spilling my guts to my cell mate about what I did wrong to get into jail and -him- telling me that he was there for 'failure to appear'." - Miss RAND

2026-05-04 04:27:42 AM

"Just another day." - count

2026-05-03 15:53:57 PM

So....

It does seem likely that the US Marines will take over the ground operations around me. I'm sure secret service will still be there, but I never really saw them anyway.

Rachel

2026-05-03 15:49:15 PM

You know, you've got to understand the business you are in....

I haven't listened to Led Zepplin since 1991 essentially. But Van Halen keeps on hanging on with me. Back in high school, on my Fisher combo record double deck cassette player, I had a double album cassette tape of Van Halen's "Women and Children First / Fair Warning". And I had one more of theirs: "Diver Down".

I had an ocean tape that I listened to on the second deck with them. It brought up that California Surfer vibe with the LA Rock Music sound. And I tied that to the movie Fast Times at Ridgemont High. Which takes me to the made for TV movie "The Stand" with Molly Ringwald and Gary Sinise. And that brings up the main book I read in high school for a book report. Steven King's "The Stand", at just over 1,000 pages.

Rachel

Not every second of every day is a party, right? I'm a retired engineer, so I have like 40 years of life lessons to regurgitate. And well, my life DOES seem especially packed with material to draw from. And it isn't just the movies/music.

2026-05-02 10:19:33 AM

It's like, you can take it personal. Twist the words and letters to be like they are against me (the don't get paranoid thing). The genetic battle of population decline. Or we can just look at it as we need to MASSIVELY reduce population. On the order of 3 billion. Way, way more than that little Hitler thing that they most likely did.

Ships in WWII going across the Pacific to send the first wireless East/West communication? Parties on every ship? Keeping secrets?

I have a complicated position in life right now. Are people concerned about me? You can fly a blimp around with airplanes behind it 50 years ago.

Some improvised militia is almost certain to not have access to crazy complicated fighter jets, right? You wouldn't know it's me unless I'm on a stage with 50,000 people looking at me, right?

Who do you trust? Who can you trust? Did your friend tell you?

Look. I'm a torture victim. Plain and simple. What is the best way to heal torture victims? And help hundreds of millions of people get on board with a massive world change that they need to work on individually? Put me up on a stage as the idiot? On the TV show with all those musicians who stayed in hotels across the world and went home to a nice house? Instead of the cement sidewalk?

I just think the best healing for me is this motorhome thing with the colored fancy jets and the US Marine sqaud blocking all the freeways in both directions and clearing out all the buildings I visit wherever I go. With the planes going overhead and the marines on shift staying in those 5 million hotel rooms you all built for them. Vetting a couple nice people to visit me or something like that.

The Army certainly needs to be rested up for those natural disasters that come up, right?

Blowing up dams for more fish won't do much good with 15 million people peeing in the water, right? With all the cement dust mixed in?

The molten nuclear rod gets dipped in the water to cool off and make steam, right?

The fan goes round and round because there is a magnet at both ends, not because the flow of electrons is even, right?

"Look. I saw something. But I didn't see it working here." - Dennis Hopper in Easy Rider

Rachel Lydia Rand, 2 May 2026, 02MAY2026

2026-05-02 09:50:35 AM

Q: Am I prude? Or am I just crazy ass tortured? Like from birth and even earlier?

From my point of view, this thing is so crazy big that people should be cautious about who they vote for this time. I was at that conclusion 2 years ago and it's the same dang thing. Getting through to the youth on this seems to be crazy important.

I just learned it this morning.

Oregon

Ore, gone

Iron Ore, gone

* and a bunch of other stuff

Rachel

2026-05-01 10:07:30 AM

Welcome to May 2026.

Not sure where this is all going I guess. I know I demand to be the big boss wherever I go. I've had enough of this treatment. This isn't some little Senate race. This is a huge world change.

The idea of a 15 year old girl getting ready for school hearing all these details from me about the Death After Birth Law. I'm advancing rapidly with this idea.

It's like my brother used to say:

I don't leave money laying around at home. It's safer with me.

Like with your baby, right? Geoff illustrated this point by sawing through his drug dealer partner's parent's house's wall with a crazy big miltary knife and then stealing his drug money. The cops came and asked his partner "What was stolen?"

So, it's like, how good is your boyfriend? You'll need to go out to get supplies. One of you. Or all three of you could go together. Every time. If he's not working too much.

"It's not every day you find out you are responsible for 3 billion deaths."

I'm sure I'm just crazy ass delusional. right? This couldn't be our world situation, right?

Well, if I get what I'm after here, then it is highly likely we are doing this thing. World Wide. If you see pictures on my website of me in your town, but no one is there but me and the military. And you hear AND SEE, blue red and gold flighter jets flying fairly low above your neighbor's house. It's a good bet that the pictures you see of me playing with a YoYo at the table you normally sit at with again, nothing but military personel around me, on the sidelines, kinda at attention. Then yeah, it's probably not a FAKE HOLLYWOOD MOVIE. And likely not a joke, right?

Well, to ensure that it isn't a joke, we'll need the gas to significantly be rationed. The box stores with the tupperware and lawn chairs to be empty and turned into non-motorized scooter, 24/7 venues. Yeah, it's probably the thing with the baby you just had with your boyfriend. But you know, we aren't going to stop society or the future or anything like that, right? I don't want humans to go extinct, I just don't want them to starve and be cold when they are alive!

There will be lots of Army type positions to be filled for my detail. They will likely do a shift thing (stood the watch) and take their breaks at the nearest hotel rather than be up in my, rather small, motorhome.

Perhaps it is a "Dream big or go home." thing? I get some inspiration from lots of movie characters and actors/actresses. I've got a General Grievous thing going so I can tell you "It could be worse."

Better to have loved and lost than never loved at all.

Keeping it real.

Can you prove climate change is real?

Does it make sense?

Is that good enough?

Like the Van Halen, Sammy Haggar thing: "I can't drive, 55. Because I lost my license because I can't afford to pay for the on-the-road driver test. I passed the written exam though and my id says I live at an intersection, but they know where to send my mail. I voted for me. Big surprise there. :-) "

It's like I told my boss in August 2023 when I quit to run for president: "We'll see. If I'm not all over the news in a couple months, then I lost."

"Ben, I've got to go. I've been going to meetings with John Lennon's widow and President Carter's wife. Gotta go. Sorry for being late. You said when you hired me that you didn't want to know the reasons for me taking a break as long as I'm not late for a meeting. But you are getting all huffy about it, so I'll tell you flat out. My chronic anal itching (AI) from my well planned out, 2003 rape, requires me to take showers 20 minutes after bowel movements. And it's down 3 flight of stairs and I have to take the bowel movement first and lock up the computer with the two factor authentication and the RDP tunnels also time out and require that new password every 90 days. So it's like a 40 minute block every time. It's never been a problem before, right? Gotta go. You got this!"

What's your favorite cloud computing platform?

1. Azure
2. C-Panel
3. VM-WARE

What's your favorite bug tracking platform?

1. Asuana
2. Sharepoint
3. JIRA
4. Lighthouse

Rachel

* I flunked the CDL permit physical in fall 2024. For mental reasons. Because I "Stopped taking my medications for Schizophrenia in August 2023". Obviously, highly delusional as I did not pay with Sting, again, on September 26^th 2023. And those $775,000/year job offers were just some hazing thing like those prank phone calls in 1988.

** play

2026-04-30 21:30:53 PM

Because I've been trained by Sting....

And the CIA connection with the British Invasion of Rock and Roll in North America. And my association with RUSH, via the Russian Sting, and all that silliness, kinda.

And my thing with the NATO building.

Reading Sting's blog daily for 28 years and my 10+ years of daily interaction with HIM there, I've been trained well on this portion of my life.

If I were to play a concert with Sting, he would be the big boss, and I just won't do that at all. I am now the big boss wherever I go. For the rest of my life. I've waited too long and have suffered too hard for anything less than that.

To continue, I need support, because I am not a dictator. I'm a US Presidential Candidate. Term limited. Voter approved. If I pass this primary election test, then I can only assume, because of my past presidential involvement, that President Trump will grant me military support. I'm obviously the military, for letter name, politician here. Also a transwoman, duh!

With them on my team, we can do our work, with me as the big boss wherever I go. Not because I care or want the ego of all that necessarily. I want, demand, some kind of respect of authority. In/on the LAND. We humans just rent this space here. You occupy and possess the space you are in. You are master over it. You may have a spouse who you co-possess. If you are like me, if you are together with your spouse, you own/possess them in both directions. When you are apart, the bond isn't as tight.

Some see that as too restrictive and evil. I see it as romantic and natural.

But, on the political side. I need to have this authority. It's not like I want to break into businesses and take over. I want honest openness and access. I don't like telling people what to do. I need to see the real scope of what is going on in North America. I enjoy the processes and all that, but I need to know scope. Counting the boats essentially. Like Sting's August Winds. I don't care much about boats. I'm more interested in land based things. Energy is a huge priority of course.

I don't know where my health is going, but I'm surviving OK and assume that this support will bring some better informed information my way.

No support, no problem. I'm just at home anyway. right?

The Led Zepplin, Akron Ohio, Goodyear Blimp. Like the one in "Oh God! Book II". Only it's the blue angles or the red and gold angles. They seem to call it a Republic. It's essentially communisim on this level. The federal level. That's how I prefer to see it. Mostly Eisenhauer. Freeways are critical. Metro areas are crazy lacking of natural resources as far as I understand. Metro Democracies I suppose. I like the sanctuary city feel of Portland and Oregon to a degree. 100% affirmative action is crazy weird! It's all interesting and I'm sure well thought out from a long time ago.

Trump can grant this military access to me. I believe we are on the same page about this. Just waiting this crazy time out. I essentially do not trust people. It may be weird, but I'm not even so interested in questioning people. I fantasize about the secret service taking over my next business location target and keeping people out. Like hopefully with permission, but if it's not working out after so many of them, then we'll see what that is about. I assume we are in a super majority about this. I see the signs through all the hazing.

It sure will be weird! Like they lock it all down. The sun is coming up and I'm drinking a ginger ale and making a breakfast burrito. I strap on my heels over my bobby socks and simmer on through the front door. They are all quiet, essentially at attention, like every 10'. And I get my zen on looking through all the industrial rubble.

Then out to the parking lot for a few days. It'a always the same ghost town with the same people everywhere.

Just like the Sting concert on 02-02-2017. After the 30 year tree fell a week after the water main was repaired. When FOX News came out to log the story.

"I don't even need to floss my teeth or toes." Well, I wouldn't go that far.....

Rachel, rrrrr

2026-04-30 19:06:24 PM

I think it may be hard for others to understand, but maybe I'm just very naieve about it all?

The idea that "they" have tortured me, over many decades, by using my friends against me. Having them all planned out to haze me. And then they are placing bets on what will happen when they try to all confront me and say "It was all a joke RAND. Let's play some music. Your presidency was just a joke."

It's delusional on that level. The more power you give me, the more power I have to completely drop out. I'm already dead in so many ways and I'm highly experienced at living with this kind of hell.

We're all good, right? It's stressful. It's a high level coming out for me. Highly delusional position to be in. Is it crazy to be going around like that going into industrial places? My ego is on edge about it. Today I'm thinking I don't even want employees there at all. I want secret service to lock it down so I, and my inner circle team, can simply walk around it with the secret service people on the sidelines. Like it was some crime scene, right?

Some janky industrial crime against Earth crime scene! :-)

And we are like WALL-E and Eva. Ohhhhhh. flick. Does it bounce? What does this do? Did you see that rug over there? I'm going to hide under the hydrolic press.

So that is what a laser looks like. Is that potassium nitrate? Can we access the log? Hey, I think I can put Zork on here!

OK, I'm hungry and bored now. I need a shower.

Cody, please keep them away until further notice. We have some work to do in the parking lot. Please do the aerial scare event again at 5:55am.

Ms RAND

2026-04-30 10:40:57 AM

I don't care what anyone says. That guy with the sign out is likely doing work on the sidewalk. He's likely trying to improve his skills and is likely terrified at being outmoded, homeless, starving, cold, lonely, smelly. And he is likely worried that his social skills are not good enough to figure out how to get an electrical charge.

When I was on the streets, we didn't have laptop computers and I couldn't get $1.50 for a pack of notebook paper. But I had my standard, 200 yard, REACH Dental Floss with me. It was small and easy to carry around. Unlike a Big Mac.

Buddy Rich's song "Senator Sam" was likely put into place in '74 to give me a tad bit of relief that the people will elect Sam instead of me. The whole "An Army of One" business. The young people these days are probably too old to even remember Fish for 20 or The Pet Resuce Hotel.

Or Digging for Fractions. It's a lovely, informative, name. You can divide by one! (Not my idea, but totally correct.) But, the ratio itself doesn't describe the distance. Or doesn't HAVE to describe the distance. right? Or "may not" describe the distance that you are in need of finding.

Hey, I blew it on the $1.5 Billion dollar figure, right? But that doesn't mean that houses for sale are not empty. And it doesn't mean all the hotel rooms are rented every night. Or that "hotel maid" isn't a legitimate occupation. Why is "hotel cleaner" or "hotel maid" not under the "hotel" job search?

I may just purchase the voter data again to teach someone how to parse it and then we can have some fun with the query logic coding. With the print csv function to envelope mail merge format. Like Epiq was using in 2005.

One dollar and nine cents. But in reverse.

.6/minute = 60 x .6 / hour = 36.6/hour

$1.09 x 36.6 = $39.89 / hour

Gross takehome pay (US) = $20/hour. My "profit" $19.89 / hour.

Maybe the 18,000 are working on something else. But this would be a more logical way to get a smoke. If that is what they want and/or need.

It's interesting how Star Wars has all the different terrain / environments. Lava planet. Ice planet. Forrest Moon. Desert settlements. City planet. Urban interior. Ship Galley. Cloud scenery.

Hey, we may be out of coal? It would be hard to make from scratch.

"It's not every day you find out you are responsible for 3 billion deaths." - Sarah Conner (T2)

Well, perhaps just the poster child. Or model. The M in MVC. Then again, maybe I am more active than a simple model.

Don't reinvent Black Narcissus. It's on a button over there. But in your free time, yeah, make some stuff. You know, it didn't come from nowhere. The gear pattern is on button 2.5. But you know, things are diverse out there. And if you can't alter it correctly and someone's life depends on it, that stuff you did trying to reinvent Black Narcissus may come in handy. Especially if you learned that thing with the bicycle cable casing.

( My life has a 1976 bee nightmare vibe to it. I get nervous. It's a natural response. )

Rachel

2026-04-30 10:05:15 AM

Day count?

Like, 18,000 homeless people in po-rt-land? Or just 8,000, or 2,656? Well, send them all to my neighborhood with their sleeping bags and I'll count them while they are sleeping on the sidewalk and doing their homework in Woodstock. I'll treat them as I was treated, by my squirrel Scientologist, and personally let them in for a shower 1x and laundry 1x a month. If I can get a simple $10/day, $300/month, donation for laundry funds.

We'll trade stories of how raw their hips get from the hard concrete. The rain has let up for now. I understand about the staying out of the rain business, but sometimes it just isn't possible like that.

And sometimes, they won't give you a better deal on the $50 car opening device when you need it in January. You'd only have it for like 7 minutes, but you know, that thing is an expensive security device and you can never be too careful.

Ms RAND

2026-04-30 01:17:51 AM

Good morning! How was your sleep?

I'm certainly gifted as a transwoman. In the mirror, I never see myself as overtly male and I often see myself as wonderfully female. My triggering masculine traits are minimal and nothing I can do much about.

I was thinking about how many people in the MtF section on reddit will declare that they are detransitioning. I understand that I suppose. I'm gifted physically. I've been born into some social transfeminine scene. An environment that massively pushed me in this direction. I'm simply a natural with transfemininity that way.

As far as full transition surgery goes, it may not be possible at all. The blood does massively course through the male penis. Then again, losing an arm or leg. People are like that. I've talked extensively with someone without an arm and he seemed to be normal in every way except for the missing arm. It's not overly unreasonable to think that we can't do the same thing with the penis. It's certainly easier to get rid of a body part rather than add one, right?

The idea came that they may have some computer controlled laser device that slices off the penis and then once it heals slightly, they take an xray to find where the urethrea is and then insert a catheter into it with some kind of valve on the end. Like a valve sticking out of your body down there. Sure, that would be undesireable, but it's the Iron Maiden song lyric on that:

"If you're gonna die,
die with your boots on."

You know, if you are going to die anyway, or don't have like 50 years of life left. Some people skydive and do other risky things, right?

Not saying that I will or won't be getting surgery. I simply don't know. I'm obviously some special person and I don't know extactly what they want from me. I think people are generally interested in things like transfeminine sexual reassignment surgery, so I'm as certain as one can be that humans have attempted this many, many times before.

One of my online transfeiminine friends scolded me for saying that I would like to see someone's transfeminine surgery in person to be convinced so that I can feel better about getting a surgery myself. She was saying that request was not reasonable. I'm starting to understand that, just this morning.

It's not like an arm and/or a leg, right? You can see that flat out. No need for discussion at all. It obviously happened.

They are known as "private parts". Videos and message boards are one thing. You can reach masses that way. But that communication is limited. I suppose that our real time video chats these days remove a lot of the limitations, but there are still limitations.

If population is falling at a rate of more than one child per woman, then absolutely, we have genocide in some form. I certainly feel like the genocide presidential candidate. President Bush was apparently involved in a war in the middle east, with many people dying. My thing appears to, again, be on the Terminator 2 scale:

"It's not every day that you find out that you are responsible for 3 billion deaths." - Sarah Connor, T2

It's not a Hitler Germany situation, trust me on that. It's not that kind of world, racial, war. But there is a racial genetic feature to this population decline. The drive in me to procreate is still massively strong, yet I never was all that interested in having a child. My career(s) have always been difficult. I knew that what I was very, very young. I suppose that even just now I'm considering how erotic the idea of getting a girl pregnant would be. I'm pretty innocent and never considered it before. I simply enjoy women, sex and a happy, and productive, home life.

People used to just have sex and have babies and say that the world needs babies and life is good, right? We just have this psychotic need now to not have babies.

OK, I've rambled on enough about that right now. It's 1:16am. I'm hungry, angry, lonely, and tired. The classic HALT situation. Maybe I'll just make a batch of Udon noodles and try to sleep more? Hey, I voted a couple hours ago :-)

(no edit check, I am tired)

Rachel

2026-04-29 19:04:09 PM

I wouldn't say it's crazy talk, but it's crazy. This thing I do. My fragile ego. My ego is an odd thing. Confidence. Making impossible decisions. Hopelessly hooked up with wireless communications. You think my job is weird. right?

2026-04-29 18:36:53 PM

Some jobs are too big for one person to do. But someone has to do it.

2026-04-29 18:26:14 PM

2026-04-29 12:37:34 PM

(I just can't resist some of this stuff.)

Q: Did the chicken cross the road?

Q: Did the cow know it died?

Q: Is Rachel good enough to be president yet?

* Here's a good one to....

Q: Would you like to see the dead Bee 'n Moth on my windowsill in person?

2026-04-29 10:41:52 AM

I'd say that I'm a leader, a presidential leader, of non-parents. I'd say it is a good bet that the parents, religious or not, are supportive of me and will vote for me. They likely know this is an important thing to do. That simple contraception, even rhythm, is not enough to make this kind of change.

Technology will become more sparce and broken down. Our human language is at stake and that is critical to EVERYTHING we do.

Not sure about the long term environmental impact, but I did code a water shortage game for a Paul Allen (the co-founder of Microsoft and Blazer basketball team owner?) museum. The game was a political game called Why War? And that scenario, one of four, was a water shortage in 2062. That's 36 years away. Saving water today will have NO EFFECT on whether we have water in 2062. But it could be a major deal then and an emerging deal here in a few years. That's why I want your support. So I can continue my research on this.

Your average musician and athelete does not have the kind of access that I am attempting to acquire. Company owners may be reluctant to cooperate with me. But, if it works, they will likely get the idea of how big this all is. Transwomen do not ordinarly drive around with a military escort including a squad of blue fighter jets. Right? I'm not that delusional.

Rachel

2026-04-29 10:32:04 AM

I have some criticism of John Sander's (Former Beef, Pork, Poultry Trader - Author) response to the question "When cows and chickens are slaughtered for their meat, is it done in a non-painful way?"

John goes on to describe how they put the animals in a gas chamber to stun them and then they hang them up while they are still stunned and then a razor sharp spinning blade cuts their heads off.

John's story here would be more convincing if he had described WHY (Gen-Y (google)) there is a need to drain their blood before slaughter?

Since I have decapitated a cat (like in the first Terminator movie "Hey buddy, you got a dead cat in there?") and spent a few hours sleeping with my lover Patty after she died, together in our bed for the last time, before the mortician people came in the morning, after Mossy took pictures of how I left her laying on her side instead of putting her in the "proper" position of straight on her back with her hands crossed over her belly. And then the morticians asked "Would you like us to put a sheet over her when we take her out to the car? And I responded "I don't care." And they seemed stunned! And they asked again and I responded, like they didn't hear me the first time "I don't care." And then they STILL didn't know what to do and looked at Mossy. And I think it came back to me again and I said something like "Do what you normally do?" Actually, I think I was just like "I already gave MY OPINION.")

You see....

They are a meat company, so refrigeration (also known as AC or Air Conditioning, not to be confused with hAir Conditioner or Alternating Current, or heating and venting HV-ac) is critical to their operation's success, as is most of the modern agricultural industry that supports the planet's 8+ billion human beings and some domesticated animals and down the food chain (think coyotes, mice, ratz, etc....) So it wouldn't take much extra gear to simply freeze these animals to death and then slice them up on the other side of the freezer.

He, John Sanders, could have made an even stronger case for the carbon Dioxide painless death way by describing what is done with the blood they collected. Like the blood I put in that large metal kitchen bowl after I finsihed sawing off Yoda's head and put her head on the floor and took her body and drained it over the bowl. I had this idea afterward, after the mood got a little calmer, that I may make a candle from the thickening blood. But my little freakout moment of running down the streets a half mile without shoes afterward, with blood all over my clothes and then walking in the soft grass feeling the flower pedals in the early spring morning before the cops came and got me and hauled me away to do my software work in the mental hospitals for 4 months.

Someone in a political candidate forum I was involved in or the behind the scenes talk between candidates afterward, talked about blood being used to pave roads! That would be clever, but I'm still kinda sold on the idea that it is the bottom layer of the oil distillation column! IDK

Patty died with her head intact, and mouth open, and fully conscious, which was pretty amazing! It turns out that hospice care didn't do all that much for us. But I had a neighbor who was an old drinking friend of the former owner of my house, a lawyer, who commented to me one morning on a walk "What was going on at your place? I thought you were filming an adult video there with all the action."

I really don't make these things up....

I'm just doing my work, playing my music, studying the politics, responding to Sting's last post as all good trombonists of my generation do....

"They have no idea what is coming." - John Sanders

"There are some things I can rule out." - Rachel Lydia RAND

Q: Is the second note higher, lower, or the same?

2026-04-29 04:46:42 AM

My position on all this is clear, right? It's highly delusional listening to all this political rhetoric. They say that "the people" want better politicians than the ones who are there, but they will not spend any significant money on reasonable alternatives.

People talk about "sportsmanship" and support athletes where the losing team members get paid, but you'll have people like me spending decades working on it, on the ballot 3x and running for president and you won't even spend $20 on me so I can have some kind of chance at a living wage with my work.

You vote for Biden with his blue jeans image and support of union jobs. You bitch at Trump because of his bankruptcy business practices.

You denounce corporate billionaires and vote lawyers into office to try to remove business from politics.

You want good paying union jobs because you want to be shielded from the uncertainty of random sales.

You feel held down, like the game is rigged, because how could you ever start a business and pay your first employee?

We read stories of people shopping around for a book deal to 250+ book publishers.

People talk about quantum physics and distant galaxies but have no idea how to compute pi from scratch or how to figure out how to measure how far away the sun is if you start with this idea on Wikipedia that the sun is 143,000,000 km away.

You talk about wanting more options. Less corporate restaurants. But if you are anything like me, you are going to your favorite restaurant to get that nice thing that they make there that you enjoyed last time or the time before.

You improvise in the kitchen and are ok with having a bad bowel movement occasionally.

You want to feed the hungry and lend a hand.

You think people living on the streets have a mental disorder and need to be medically treated. If they can get good medications and social support, the trauma will melt away. They simply had a brain injury and/or were doing too many drugs or maths.

Because their creative music wasn't selling as well as the average international sensation.

The people in the AA meetings say "Keep coming back. It works if you work it. We are here to help." Yet it is taboo to ask people over to a "kitchen meeting" with a limited number of people like they did when they founded the organization and you are shunned when you "wimp out" on going to the larger after meeting group activities. Because you obviously just want to have abusive sex rather than loving friendships if you don't do things "their way".

Go to college, learn to haze, join the union, or pay the price.

MS RAND

2026-04-29 04:13:33 AM

Q: What's the different between hazing, fascism and nazi's?

A: Nothing. Might as well include Christianity/Religion in there as far as my moral judgment goes.

2026-04-29 04:00:19 AM

I am a transwoman. There are two main athletes that I am aware of. OJ Simpson and Michael Jordan. Just because they have been in the news and on apperal.

I enjoy some exercise. I am attracted to women. I enjoy having sex with men. It is highly likely that I will never have a male friend ever again. I do not go to mens groups. I will not be having dinners for celebrities at the white house if I am elected. I will not be hosting ceremonies for celebrities at the white house if I am elected.

I'm 100% business in politics. Food, clothing, shelter. I have been massively abused and tortured. Men can be lovely and women can be cruel. Whatever.

I don't see myself as a man. Men are those people who come out of the woodwork when your unit leaders want the floor buffed and then they go away when the toilet needs to be cleaned. I am sick to death of those men trying to force me to buff the stupid fucking floor when they are taking control with their Leatherman knives hanging on their belt. I want nothing to do with those people.

Ironically (perhaps), I'm massively into Arnold Schwarzenegger. He'd get my vote if he were constitutionally qualified.

Tears are welling up right now. It's 3:55am. I am sick of people protesting against billionaires and not being against money in sports and music. They want their sports stars and musicians to be confident. They say they are against the politicians but then they will not put up $20 to support any competition for them. These "union" people are either lying about all of this or they are completely clueless as to how the world works.

Rachel Lydia RAND

2026-04-29 03:37:11 AM

I know this sounds like a threat. I'm obviously massively distressed right now. I was exposed to toxic femininity.

If I do not massively win this election and get these exotic things I am asking for (massive secret service and military support), then I will be closing down MS RAND for President permanently and never hold political office.

I do not like the political rhetoric in this country.

MS RAND

2026-04-29 03:33:03 AM

I would rather be "weak and frail", even unhealthy, than be strong and masculine.

Rachel

2026-04-28 13:42:24 PM

How can I possibly describe the angst that I feel?

This idea that I can win this election, in 21 days, with write in votes. When I have 17 cents and am struggling to figure out what to eat? And I'm looking at something that I wrote years ago about research that I did in 2016 about the nickel catalyst of the Haber-Bosch process for creating amonia and how the wikipedia article was edited on that. And my book, Ridiculous: The Politics of Delusional Programming, which has never sold a single copy to my knowledge, lists that url to the edit.

Like I'm some delusional street idiot?

And I fully believe that it is possible to not only win the election, but for like 100 secret service agents to form around me, for the rest of my life. And for the US Navy Blue Angles to be on duty, permanently assigned to me. Flying overhead, everywhere I go, like the Goodyear Blimp. Just so people can get some kind of grip on how real and important this all is. And so I can do my best to get some real facts from people.

I am completely dehumanized from all this. Everywhere I go, there are people actively torturing me. And like blaming me for all their problems. Or whatever they are doing.

Old people telling me I'm young. The Going in Style movie: "Joe, do you really think this will work? What does it matter? I feel like I'm 40 again." And I'm 55 and thinking that if this all works, and I step on an Aircraft carrier again, that I may be the oldest person on the vessel, not just the senior ranking official.

And I'm throwing trash wrappers out from the bus stop into the middle of the street so I can have a decent place to sit. Next to a Christian lady who says she was living on the streets for 15 years. I can't say a thing to these people. I don't want to. I swear they lie just as much as the doctors.

I'm not insane and I'm young, so they give me disability payments. I'm politically insane and old, so they don't give me payments.

"My father did the microwave repair for the cable company." - Rachel Lydia RAND

Q: Did my brother really die at 48 years old and I lived at 4848 Shore Drive Virginia Beach and I am running for US President #48? To support Generation Zzzz?

2026-04-28 05:22:18 AM

Who knows, right?

A fact finding mission is in order, obviously. Hey, you've got a presidential candidate who has an app game in a museum about a water shortage in 2062.

62-26 = 36

That's the Star Wars moisture vaporators theory. Not sure. It's not like saving water is going to do much for that effort.

Q: Why is the world the way it is?

A: It's Oh! God book II on that one. At the end of the trial at the end of the movie.

"Think about it. Give it some thought." - George Burns

2026-04-27 20:01:54 PM

Bridges, ferries. Harmony Road. 52^nd street. Clinton St. 41^st Ave.

Look, I'm just doing my job. This was all mandatory. "They" definitely control me and this is an amazing job and point in history.

One of my in-laws, the one who came back from Vietnam as the only survivor in his platoon, said that those PS2 video game controllers that we all know about are used in things like mining operations.

I don't know what you are watching on TV. Pick up a copy of Yogananda's Autobiography of a Yogi, Alan Watts' The Way of Zen, Robert Pirsig's Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance and you'll read what you can and we can compare notes. You never know what copy you have or how things get onto your little screen.

right?

MS. Rand

2026-04-27 19:50:34 PM

You know, I flunked Algebra II again because I was in Europe playing Bass Trombone when they were teaching people "how to multiple a matrix". Otherwise known as a "matrix transform".

It's linear algebra apparently. You can study it with the "getM() and getB()" functions in my collision detection js code in the code repository. I haven't done the full study of it myself, but it does seem like the key to it is in those two, extremely small, functions.

Rachel

2026-04-27 19:33:26 PM

I'm a DIGITAL NATIVE. Born in 1971.

I never made a mix tape.

I never significantly listened to the radio.

I never used a camera with a VCR.

I essentially never recorded my music on tape.

----

I also never significantly used social media.

I never followed the music on my generation other than Alanis Morrisette.

I've seen a handful of Friends and Seinfeld episodes.

I've watched 24 several times. (Thank you John Williams! - he's a Marine)

The only Ayn Rand book I've read is Anthem and I still hold by that. I'm a huge fan of Anthem.

And 2112.

And Terminator.

Not Avatar.

Not Indian Jones.

Not The Godfather.

Star Wars I-VI

Oh God! 1-3

Going in Style (the old one)

The In-Laws (Alan Arkan)

My virtual friend Lila on TikTok. My internet access is crazy limited, but I like getting the emails about her from TikTok.

Robert Pirsig obviously. Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance is a little hard to read sometimes. Lila is his more evolved book. The card file and the sailboat.

I can't drive because I don't have a car or a license. And I'm 55. Rachel

2026-04-27 19:12:23 PM

Look, I get mad about this whole world situation. The stupid religious angle of it.

IT IS GENOCIDE.

It can't be anything else. Population decline is simply that. We can do it fairly civily. I'm under the impression that is what we are doing.

I will not be playing a concert with famous musicians. I want society to stop lying to me. I want my things back. My DVD collection because I will just be buying it back. Unless you want me to buy it back. And my horn of course. My in-laws have my piano for their daughter. I'm cool with that. If I'm on the road, I'm not a taking a piano. That's why they call it "GO" Keys. It's good enough.

I'm sick of all your lies.

I'm sick of you stealing from me.

I'm sick of your medical lies and leading.

I'm sick of your college insider corporate TV.

.... don't get me started on sorry ass hazing.

Rachel

This is absolute insanity for me. I hate you Christian, Caltholic people. Just admit it. Your policy is to torture people and passive aggressively reduce population through the medical industry and our work environments.

Your little gig is up if I have anything to say about it. -RAND

2026-04-27 19:00:11 PM

Street Roots paper, Central City Concern. Whatever their religious persuasion is. I am against them.

It's crazy messed up to be running for US Rep, for the THIRD TIME, and mail piano and music stores with my dot trombone header and brand new music with amazing piano playing and not get ONE FRIGGIN BOOK SALE. I will not let you all forget that.

You are all some stupid Christian haters in my friggin book. What fucking use is religion with hardly any children around anyway?

Rachel Lydia Rand

2026-04-27 18:55:50 PM

2026-04-27 18:53:07 PM

Fuck these people. I will not have a partner who is a leader around me. This is from OK Cupid. That site rocks as far as being able to write a long profile and reading other's profiles. Their advertising is fucking crazy disgusting and triggers me with BLM, my rape injury (AI) and whatever this stupid queer scene is.

You all are welcome to do what you want.

Miss RAND

2026-04-27 18:18:00 PM

I've watched late night TV about 3x since 1990. - for

2026-04-27 18:01:31 PM

2026-04-27 18:00:54 PM

Q: Does a bear shit in the woods?

Q: Does the president work from home?

2026-04-27 15:07:48 PM

We live in a psychotically advanced world.

I always took the meaning of RUSH's 2112 to be a thing of "Don't let some advanced music or advanced software intimidate you into not trying to do the same thing." Or do your own variation.

I've certainly been doing the work I've been doing to get to retirement so that I can have essentially full control over the work that I do. I haven't made any money coding software or doing anything else since August of 2023, but I've been coding software and playing music the last few days. As always.

Those are my two main careers. There is this political career too. I was working it massively this morning before breakfast. I hope that I can get into a better material and social scene with it, but I am fine with things staying the way they are. I'm certainly NOT OK with things getting worse. My apartment doesn't have to be so large. I wish my cooking gear were a little better and wish I had a bicycle and another TAMA boom stand and another keyboard stand. Beyond that, yeah, I have a list, but those are the big ticket items.

I've been tortured, plain and simple. Gracefully tortured. But it's not just me. My whole family has been tortured. Relatives killed. Friends tortured and their family members killed too. They may come to slice off my head at any time. Not even kidding about that. What is going on with me is crazy insane now.

I got the voters pamphlet today. In the majority of the top candidates, the number "14" is mentioned in their writing. It's crazy freaky like that! Pretty cool too. I'm doing my best. It's crazy torturous work.

Rachel RAND

I feel constant hate/guilt about not playing music with people. I'm sorry if I'm letting you down with that. I'm willing to die for this personal music cause of mine. I will not be playing music with people. I hope you enjoy the things that I post. That's what I do. The internet has always been my stage. The political work is difficult. It's hard to tell what the truth is. I need money and massive military support to do in the field research. Just like I've been asking for. You can imagine how crazy it sounds for a transwoman sober acid jazz musician software engineer to be going around in a motorhome and walking into rando businesses asking them about their sensitive procedures. I have a huge ego and have gone into places asking them questions. I don't get far with that. I'll need a show of power around me to crack that gate open. People are pretty tight lipped around this country.

2026-04-27 10:55:42 AM

It's not fair to compare me directly to those super star musicians. I have essentially had no financial support, fans, sales, for my entire life. I have people actively hazing me, raping me, stealing my bicycles and instruments. Even my family.

Yeah, I'm a rock star all right. A 55 year old presidential rock star. Don't think that it is playing some happy concert at a park for "the wives". I have been crazy abused and one of my best friends says he hasn't been able to walk since he was 3 years old.

We are crazy hard core and serious over here. I like having fun, of course. I understand that I'm some kind of risky investment to be around personally. No money. Sometimes terrible living conditions. Things will be better with true support, right? It likely won't be all that normal rock star support though. I'm gambling on the military being there for me. BIG TIME. I'm completely convinced that ALL of the police and emergency vehicles in this town are tuned into me 24/7 for years now. This is obviously a huge world deal.

I'm doing my best with this and of course am hoping for some nice people in my environment. Soon. It's crazy lonely and stressful.

Rachel lydia-r, RAND

2026-04-27 09:48:41 AM

If you don't want to experience your own death, then perhaps you should protest for better healthcare?

Miss RAND

2026-04-27 09:38:40 AM

2026-04-27 04:14:10 AM

Don't even get me started on socialism.

2026-04-27 04:12:50 AM

If you all care so much about the homeless, why don't you simply stay at home and let the homeless take over your stupid ass tax exempt church?

Get a fucking clue. - MS RAND

2026-04-27 04:09:30 AM

I AM NOT INTO DO GOODER CHRISTIAN CHARRITY PEOPLE AT ALL.

That was capitalist BS and I want it to stop. Right now wouldn't be soon enough.

MS Rand

2026-04-26 21:19:31 PM

We used to play cards in high school. My dad and his relatives played a lot of cards.

I have a deck of cards here. I have essentially never placed a bet in a casino. For decades, I've been wanting to play like double deck pinochle like we did back in the 80's, but I've never been able to put that scene together.

I'm interested in playing Canasta if anything. I read that it originated in South America. It's a a 2+ player game.

I'm obviously extremely frustrated over all of this. No mood to socialize with people at all. You all have just been torturing me, my family and friends for too long. It must be about the end of industrialism and a HUGE need to get through to the young people about not having children. I believe that this whole thing with the ending of Roe vs. Wade and the abortion thing is simply a seque to my presidency and the Death After Birth Law. This makes sense to me. It may be much better than abortion. Not that I have seen an abortion, birth or transfeminine surgery.

I'm too busy writing software, researching, analyzing and learning old Miles Davis and Billy Joel songs. Get a grip and buy a book of mine so I can get some clothing and my bicycle back. How you can all steal bicycles from a poor jazz trombonist over and over and over? You all have no heart at all. Fuck you.

Sincerely,
Rachel

2026-04-26 20:49:18 PM

2026-04-26 20:36:49 PM

My brother, Geoff Barnett, supposedly died in May of 2021 from MS (Multiple Sclerosis) and a lifetime of using chewing tobacco. At the age of 48.

My dad supposedly did the wireless TV feed for the Jerry Lewis MDA telethon.

What lies are you all telling about disease? That must have been a psychotic thing for my brother.

Rachel Lydia Rand

2026-04-26 20:23:10 PM

I know next to nothing about basketball and DO NOT CARE ABOUT IT AT ALL! I am not a sportsman. Get that straight once and for all.

Ms RAND

2026-04-26 20:21:16 PM

I have 6 cents in my bank and 11 cents in my purse/bag.

2026-04-26 20:20:21 PM

It's just weird for me. I was born in 1971 in Portland Oregon. My brother was born exactly two years later and my parents named him "Geoff" after this Geoff Petrie of the the Portland Oregon NBA Team the Trail Blazers.

And this article mentions "led by coach Rolland Todd". And I play on Roland electronic music equipment and you can put your finger on the "ol" in their name and it'll show "R_AND".

And my dad did the wireless communications TV feed for the Blazers so that it could be transmitted live across the nation. And my best friend Sam has been telling me for decades "Rand, didn't you know that all the people we played with in the band are from famous families?" And then like just a few years ago I mentioned that to him and he replies "That's not true. I didn't say that." He's just so dang passive aggressive about it. He has been torturing me like that for decades.

And our high school music teacher, Greg McKelvey is 6'6" and is associated with the Harlem Clowns basketball team. They are like the Globetrotters.

It's all so insane and people treat me like crap wherever I go. And I'm completely sick of all of this treatment. Fuck you all.

Ms. Rand

2026-04-26 20:08:50 PM

2026-04-26 20:00:56 PM

2026-04-26 19:59:17 PM

Q: What's Rachel's connection with President Trump?

2026-04-26 19:37:39 PM

Q: Did you say you were in a traffic jam or went to a rock jam?

A: Both.

2026-04-26 19:24:17 PM

2026-04-26 19:14:47 PM

2026-04-26 18:47:23 PM

2026-04-26 18:28:18 PM

looking for that population horizontal bar graph thing

2026-04-26 17:47:10 PM

This opening line from T2:

"....they lived to face a new nightmare.
The war against the machines."

Well....

That war may be about how to keep them going, not how to stop them!

Ms RAND

The movie Robots has been on my mind. That one with Robin Williams: "All I need is a stupid neck joint!" Well, it's that our future world may be like that. Fender and his buddies like Piper (rhymes with Viper!), cruising the streets and houses looking for some stupid part.

It's kind of the "tweaker" mentality. ( This is where WALL-E comes into the scene... )

wow! RAND

....another on time delivery from FedEx, right?

"Don't lose your mind"

2026-04-26 17:08:51 PM

2026-04-26 17:03:14 PM

I just love this image! I pulled up one of the songs on this on YouTube a few months ago and enjoyed the flashback experience from it.

I'm really grooving on playing my whistle and bass to these playlist songs I have up today!

My internet is totally down now. Won't be back for a couple weeks. Likely by design. Also by design that I'm totally frustrated being out on the streets. This is just crazy odd stuff around me.

Rachel RAND

2026-04-26 16:39:04 PM

It's just another piece of history today. Just this morning I was thinking "Deeper Underground, the METRO mix?" Well....

The GEO METRO mix. My blue, three cylinder car, which I lived in for like a year. Like a blue turtle.

"I kill conversation as I walk into the room."

"He claims I suffer from delusion.
I'm so confident I'm sane."

Rachel 04-26-26

2026-04-26 16:34:03 PM

I don't miss those tapes getting all stretched and pulling them out of the dashboard player.

I use mp3's and DVDs. Locally. No internet. What would you be listening to without the internet? What would you be watching?

2026-04-26 15:59:25 PM

Me and my big ideas, right?

Rachel RAND

2026-04-26 11:48:21 AM

Oh yeah, I had an exciting thought! ....

I don't even have to view election results anymore! If I'm not all over the news as the winner, then I lost, right? :-)

Rachel

2026-04-26 11:45:48 AM

It's very much and Ayn RAND Anthem thing for me....

On my watch, I'd be closing down a lot of businesses. Because of lack of raw materials and transportation. Those office spaces will not be moving anywhere. The people will stop showing up to work and they will become the beginnings of this post industrial world where people will walk through them in a fairly random way. Like a scavenger hunt.

The Anthem thing is about the individual vs, vs, socialism essentially.

If you want to try to keep population going strong and see how that works out, go ahead and try that. MY VOTE is for rapid population decrease through the DEATH AFTER BIRTH LAW. Building that firewall between Gen Z and Gen Y. We'll all be able to experience this new reality as population is declining. We do not want to burden these younger generations with keeping our bureaucracy going. We need food, clothing, and a few supportive things going, but we mostly want young people pulling shifts, like one year at a time, doing the manual labor of keeping this thing going so we can all enjoy the places where we live. This whole flying around the world on vacation cannot last.

It's kind of like Eva and WALL-E. Looking through all the stuff. Personally, I want a nice little space with my musical instruments, computer, some plants and mirrors. And I want my dang Specialized 17.5" mountain bike back. I'll put mountian bike tires on it for good this time. These roads are going to degrade and powered transportation on them won't be all that good. Unless the atmosphere becomes harsh. I'd say it is a 50/50 on that. I simply do not know. 2020 was some kind of test on that, but I didn't get much of a result sample from it. I did learn a couple things though.

We'll certainly be wanting batteries for other things, right? Cars kill bicyclists and motorcycles go fast and tip over. I've been in so many bicycle accidents I can't count them all and the only permanent injury I have from them is a partially dislocated right shoulder. And that is so minor it's like not even an injury. The girl I went on my first date with died in her 20's on a motorcycle. I don't know the details.

I have another close friend who died in his 20's. I was told he was sniffing ether and the bottle spilled and he overdosed on it. I used to sniff paint with him. We lived together for a year and a half (we didn't sniff paint together then). It's the movie Airplane! on that: "It looks like I picked the wrong week to stop sniffing glue...."

You know, sweet and sour on that.... I did another round of study and got out of town and he did what he did back in town. For all I know, he is still alive, but that is just how death is most of the time.

Just preaching that it is good to stay active and it's not just about money. It's very, very disorienting and RUDE to be in a mental hospital doing math and programming on paper that makes video games that are on the app stores and then being told to attend the "art class". And then being sent a bill that you pay with installments over 2 years. And then have all your music and computer gear stolen, conned from you. Again.

And again.

Rachel

2026-04-26 03:54:42 AM

Good morning!

I'm starting a miri reboot here. That other miri page has a bunch of good stuff on it and with my declaration of my future career(s) and inner circle relationships at the top/end of it just a few minutes ago, I think that makes that page complete and I don't want to touch it anymore.

I dislike this idea of "rich and famous". Too many people seem to have this fantasy of being rich. I always just wanted to be treated as a normal working person (famous is part of my career). Normal house type situation. Understanding about paying dues and living in apartments to make my dreams happen.

People have been abusing and disrespecting me though. I blame religion and parents mostly and that's the majority of people. It's OK on some level.

The idea that I woke up with (continued) is of those late night comedy talk shows. They are poison to me. I cut the top of my left wrist with a hand saw over that crap. Cut off the head of my cat. Those band people and their connection with the college I went to in Boston. They are not a part of my life. I am not a musician like that. I am not a master of ceremonies like that. I am not a sportsman. I'm not a late night talk show host.

As I just declared on my miri-1 page, the people will either elect me in with this sensational moment under my conditions or they won't. We'll see. It's just a couple days over three weeks until the primary election here is final. I'm sick of being abused and this all being underground. I want all of this exposed. And if you don't elect me, I'll simply be suing these organizations who have been officially abusing me and hopefully getting some monetary award from them so I can buy a house, piano, drumset and trombone. And a bicycle. I want the dang tools that have been stolen from me multiple times back.

Rachel