2026-01-30    01:10:24 AM

2026-05-19    03:53:07 AM

Good morning!

Well, it's election day. Primary 2026 in Oregon. I'm not on the ballot, but my campaign is stronger than it's ever been and there is a strong possibility that I'll make history by winning via write-in.

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Sam often tells me the story of how Jay (one of our saxophone player friends) made a successful music career in New York City. He said that after high school, like after a little college at Mount Hood Community College, he went to NY and was homeless there and struggled and had to come home because it wasn't working out.

He then studied more and went again and the same thing happened. He was sleeping on a park bench and then the newspaper, like the New York Times I assume, took a photo of him playing his horn and put it on the front page. After that, he was able to make a living at it. He then played with Greg Allman and started his own band. He's been at it for 35+ years now.

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I've been sending high level emails out for years. No one responds with much of anything. Hopefully that changes.

MS RAND

2026-05-18    10:15:26 AM

You learn something new everyday!

Um, so, I don't know how "they" pull this off with all these numbers, right? I'm just doing my little jobby wob over here....

MS Rand, Rachel L.

2026-05-14    14:40:57 PM

2026-05-14    14:08:44 PM

2026-05-13    04:45:32 AM

I woke up to seven car horn beeps at 3am. 6/7 days to go.

It does feel more serious now. It's super weird being treated this way. I'm not sure where the lies are coming from. Not sure about a lot of things. But the big picture seems clear. It's a revolution and a war against population growth. I dont' see it as a civil war, but it is a genocide.

I think the concept of waiting years to see what genentic lineage a child has before deciding whether they are to continue living is somewhat of a weak idea. That creates a lot of bad vibes and tension and I think we simply need to reduce population as a whole. If it gets too small in the future, we can certainly build population again. Getting it lower seems to be the main problem.

I'm sure all these people walked to downtown and we have plenty of resources to continue making automobiles for the rest of our lifetime.

Rachel

2026-05-12    12:26:10 PM

2026-05-09    08:47:55 AM

My old house. Had it for 10 years then sold it to put more skin in the game for the U.S. President job. Well worth it, but wow, a difficult journey and life.

* picture is from JAN 2017. The tree in the front yard fell a month later. 02-02-2017. TuTu. I just learned that tutu thing last week. First time. Then the 02-02-2020 campaign and the pandemic. I'm not simply delusional, right? This is actually happening folks. Not just some reality movie plot.

After selling the house on 02AUG2024, I had $55,000 in cash and one debt. An SBA EIDL loan for $13,300 that I took out during the pandemic. I ended up putting the $55,000 in my MS Rand for President account and then paid it back to myself. Then I declared it on my taxes as income, like W2 income, from MS Rand for President. Mostly so I wouldn't have another year of no earnings on my record. I made $134,000 in 2022. That was my only six figure income year and before that, my biggest year was $71,000. I had 4 good years in a row when I bought the house. Two $71,000 and two $65,000. There were a few years just a little lower than that too.

I had almost quadrupled my income when I got that six figure year. The next year was $84,000. I quite my job to run for president full time in August 2023. Then I was getting crazy harrassing phone calls. Chinese and oriental people who I was officially interacting with. Like to do collections on raw steel imports! :-) And Facebook got a job in my inbox for $775,000/year but I was so freaked out by it all. I mean, I'm running for president. Why don't they buy some books first?

It's ridiculous. I have no idea what the little citizens around here are about. I'm like way more zen than them. "ZENSHI" chopsticks paper is right next to me. Saved from like a year ago.

It's one of those post or delete moments.. I guess I'll click "Insert Into Production" on this.

Rachel

2026-05-08    21:01:16 PM

The end of industrialism

What would the animals think? Fighter jets in a 2x or 4x formation. A few hundred feet in the sky. In every city around the world. Daily. For an entire year. Then silence.

You can't tell me we don't have the fuel or the planes.

That every creature on the planet will know the humans are up to something. And then we essentially go dark. Just like it is every fourth of july. Back home. Put the keys by the door. Get to the restroom. Snuggle up on the couch for a few mintutes. Think about next steps in the morning.

It's good training, right? It's not like we are going to want to prioritize global tourism over safety via control of our airspaces. You can't tell me we'll eliminate every destructive idea in the world.

2026-05-08    08:32:13 AM

2026-05-06    17:33:40 PM

2026-05-06    16:26:33 PM

2026-05-06    12:00:43 PM

Look, this is the best way to put it:



I'm going to go cry now.... or perhaps just collapse in a little ball on my bed.

No more humilation folks. Just allow me some dignity in my work and/or let me get these millions so I can retire to someplace with a piano, drumset, trombone, arcade controllers and dvds. That's the stuff I kept. I got rid of the wood working tools. They are still around and in excellent condition. The world needs that stuff! I'm not going to use it much in the future.

I'm not into people. This is crazy cruel. Maybe I was in the wrong? I'm an innocent. I grew up in a strange environment.

2026-05-06    11:49:40 AM

This is digital native, right?

Some of the best times of my life were when I was coding software and I'd have a new client and I'd learn what they wanted and then say to them: "OK, I understand. I'm going to code for a few months now and I'll get back to you when I have something working. And then you'll get me the mid-term first payment and then I'll finish it up."

That happened with the Pickt app that I coded about a decade ago. I didn't receive 100% of the payments for it, but it worked great and I was paid enough to continue on. I was told that the app was never used in a production setting do to funding problems for things like administation and moderation.

It's kind of a Generation Y joke or jab against me. With Mark Zuckerberg. It's like all Generation X was born without connectivity besides the kitchen phone with the long cord. And then we picked up email and then Gen Y became the first "digital natives" and most of Gen X caught on. But I'm still kind of Boomer Generation about it. But then I'm more Digital Native than all of them on some level.

That is a full digital native picture, right? If I had my zen whistle flute in the shot with my trombone and chopstick drum kit, I'd have it all!

** this gig of mine is crazy stressful. I hope this marine traning camp thing pans out. I don't want to spread death around, but these stores exist and I feel I can be of use training Marines. But I don't really know for sure. It's a stange suggestion, but certainly completely in-line with US Presidential Training.

I was born with an allergy to advertising. - MS Rand, Rachel Lydia-r

2026-05-02    16:43:19 PM

Wow, this torture is so dang thorough.

And as long as I'm still alive, it will obviously continue through the fourth of july. I'm planning things with my Marine/Navy escort service where I am taking over a house of my choosing. They'll round up the occupants. Find their cat. I'll have a marine saw the head off the cat right in front of them and their little child if they have one. Then I'll find some concrete place in some neighboring place, because the whole mile will be vacant with the rest of them in some hotel. And I'll have the marines watch you sleep on the concrete under the awning for 2 days and not let you leave. While I raid your wife's closet and make off with the best dresses and shoes I can find. If there is anything there.

All with pink and blue and communist red/yellow fighter jets flying a couple hundred feet up, regularly.

Rachel

2026-04-30    18:34:15 PM

* In a humorous mood at the moment. it happens....

So, let me get this straight....

Trump was on the cover of Playboy Magazine in like 1990 and then he acquired a cruise ship company and melted down a skyscraper with some big plan to feed the fish?

I really don't know. Just sorting this out now. Kinda without the internet. I haven't watched much TV since 1990.

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Since I watch Terminator 2 a lot, I've gotten familiar with the cast names and stories. I enjoy Robert Patrick's story about the pontoon boat in the great lakes or up there somewhere. They had a mechanical problem and were stranded and I guess a little panic developed and he ended up swimming 2 miles to save them. And it worked! And then he kinda had a freak out moment and went moved to Hollywood.

He's on the other screen and the big rig gas tank just blew up! And the burning tire is going by!

Nate and I biked these drainage canals in Memphis. After the wolf river trail riding got boring. Which wasn't easy because that trail is the best place in the world for a daily mountain biker team! Couple of course. It was simply amazing. They may have good stuff like that around here in Oregon, but it's not in Forest Park as far as I have observed. Forest park is too vertical.

The Janell actress is in Star Trek IV. Or one of them. IV or II. She is in the Communications seat in San Francisco when the whales are all angry and destroying them because they came from the other solar system and their buddies are not responding to their spaceship call. She seems very, very distressed about it and then like a window shatters with all the water comming into the room.

Very bad situation.

But our TOS crew is successful with George and Gracie and it's all good with the alien whales and they go back home without even applying for the H1b VISA.

There is Sarah Conner in the white hospital garb. Sam painted a picture of me in the brown mental hospital stuff a long time ago. He didn't say it was me. Not even sure where I saw it. It's odd how he shows up as a visitor when I haven't talked with him in years.

I think I'll put this in miri-2, no?

Rachel

* I mean, I can win this election like this and do what I want that way. And no one is missing out on anything. You'll all be crazy happy about it with all your music celebration stuff and I'll be happy with my new, non-parent, team with the miltary support and the wok and other quality gear. Like pantyhose, other nylons, dresses, an assortment of drums etc....

And we'll reconviene in 2 years for the reunion trip. Trump is building the extra space right? I'll have the white house and my friends will have the Storage Unit. Kinda like that gear locker I stayed in on the ship after that guy grabbed my ass and grunted like a monkey before the battle manuevers started and the boxes started falling on my head and didn't even cause a headache or bloody nose!

And I did pretty well with the drum machine 3 years later, no?

Rachel, again.

2026-04-28    06:32:40 AM

Ballots are getting mailed tomorrow and I got the voter pamphlet yesterday.

I had a conversation with Jamil O Ahmad in 2024. He's running against Rep Suzanne Bonamici in Congressional District #1. He mentioned their struggles at Intel with the Daylight Savings Time shifts. I questioned him with "If it's so important, why don't you use some internal clock for production over there?" He responded with "Well, the guys like to be in synch with the world out there." Paraphrased of course.

But I get it. I've hand coded that time shift stuff and it does get confusing!

And there is my relationship with guitarist and Intel retiree (FIRE style) George Bailey who says he "worked on the clocks at Intel". George is like the one musician I'd really like to play with again. I had some excellent times playing with him in my living room. He REALLY does a convincing Alex Lifeson! Very, very serious about getting all that correct :-)

George Bailey, right? Intel. Hey, and of course Sam has all the inside stuff on textiles. I've got some interesting connections.

I've started a "miri-2" page. Link is at the top. I'm planning on leaving this page alone as I like where it ended up.

Rachel

2026-04-26    03:02:16 AM

Rachel's Relationships and Career(s)

I woke up thinking that I could scope out when there are concerts/shows at Keller Auditorium and the Schnitzer auditorium and then go there with my zen whistle flute and a hat out.

But no, that is just more humilation crap from you stupid people. So....

As far as my CAREER goes, the only thing I care about is being elected to the Senate and then the White House. Winning this election via write-in. Secret Service taking over the scene around me for the rest of my life. Visually. Where ever I go, Secret Service is locking down the scene and I'm telling them where I am going. Walking into rando businesses to talk business with them and fighter jets flying overhead while I am talking to them. I want them to treat me with top level respect.

I AM SICK OF BEING ABUSED.

Relationships:

I do not want people who are parents in my inner circle.

Anything less than those things and I will be staying in my little place, whether it is a mansion or a simple dwelling and only coming out for food and court trials. I am sick to death of this culture and people not respecting my work. If you all care about me, you have a terrible way of showing it.

Rachel Lydia Rand

2026-04-25    18:18:32 PM

With this trigonometry lesson....

I proved on New Year's Eve going into 2004, on a bench in front of a grocery store around midnight, in the snow, that you can do this whole gaming engine using only ratios. No trigonometry. But....

Then for every press of the keys to rotate your ship, you would be altering the rise/run, the x/y, instead of moving like 10 degrees in a CIRCLE. That would be an UNNATURAL movement.

It's the thing with the speed square in carpentry.

With the speed square, you can just measure from the end of your roof to the center of the building and then divide that length by two and build up that amount. Then you can use the speed square to cut that 26.56 degree angle on the ends of the wood and it'll lay up there all nice.

That's different than video games, right? For that application in carpentry, 26.56 degrees is close enough to 30 degrees. It actually doesn't even matter. But for ROTATING an Asteroids ship, yeah, that's a circular motion.

And if the trigonometry calucations could be derived from pi itself, they would have just taught that in all the schools instead of this stuff with the Trigonometric tables in the back of the book and the calculators and all that. I know how to calculate pi on a computer now, but it's not a mathematical formula. And it's the same for every angle pair in the trigonometric tables. I believe that is the case.

In any case, I love using this trig stuff! And I especially love getting PAID to do it! It's always a good day at work when I'm doing trig and getting paid. My trig work is on apps in two museums. At least. It's fun stuff!

And I hope to turn some other people on to it.

Rachel

2026-04-25    18:00:31 PM

2026-04-25    17:43:00 PM

Here is how to enumerate an object's properties in javascript.

Object.keys(obj): Returns an array of an object's own enumerable string-keyed property names.

I always forget how to do things like that! You'd use it like this:

var obj = { "item1": "potatoes"; "veggies": "brocolli, spinach" };
var objKeys = Object.keys(obj);
for(var a = 0; a < objKeys.length; a++) {
  var key = objKeys[a];
  var val = obj[key].value;
  alert(key + " = " + val);
  console.log(key + " = " + val);
}

right? I needed that for the QIX clone the other day....

Rachel

2026-04-25    14:03:17 PM

I love these life hack things! My bathroom, and entire place, has poor ventilation. So these shower curtains really get to smelling bad quickly. I put this system up just a week ago. So far so good!

Rachel

2026-04-25    13:13:40 PM

Gotta keep that sense of humor. It's critical!

.... especially if you want to reach "the people" with a radical political agenda! - Miss RAND

2026-04-25    08:20:57 AM

I call this building one of those Death Stars that we want to do the Order 66 on!

Ms RAND

* on the radio (mp3 of course): Bob Mintzer -> Lazy Day

2026-04-25    06:12:30 AM

Good morning!

I filed 3 federal civil lawsuits yesterday. For tens of millions of dollars. I've suffered massive abuse over all of this and I'm on some kind of warpath about it all. I'm sick of being abused and I want to see this world change happen.

Internet is down over here for a while. We'll see if people vote for me and this change or whether they'll just vote the dang party line again like they always do.

Rachel Lydia RAND

2026-04-24    20:21:56 PM

Oh yeah, I was thinking about "on-demand"....

With the way my parents watched TV with the cord going across the living room to mute the commercials, they were employing more control over the environment. Demand.

Google AI told me this evening that AC ( Alternating Current) electricity does in fact switch direction cyclically. 60 times a second. So that deal in the US with the left plug prong being bigger doesn't really do much.

It's kind of like how I was taught to put my mouthpiece in my horn the same way every time. It's not like that is good or bad. There is a downside. The trombone is typically held with the left hand/arm, so that are is holding all the weight and is doing something completely different than the right arm.

So they both get a different kind of wear over the decades.

Rachel

2026-04-24    00:10:47 AM

Just moving the day counter forward here before pushing to the server....

2026-04-23    19:14:17 PM

I'm certainly not so good at trivia games since I hardly watch any TV. It's not that I'm simply not up to date on things. I was never in any groove there. I like have a few rusty old meditation books and a couple 60's-80's loopy, one chord, jazz grooves.

I have a way of coding software and then finally get around to using it a decade later....

Rachel

2026-04-23    18:29:40 PM

Strategy vs. Trivia based games.

Action vs. Casual Games.

I enjoy my Flick Bricker game. It's got arcade angle action, but there is no time crunch on it.

Rachel

2026-04-23    08:13:02 AM

2026-04-23    08:10:11 AM

Daily countdown checking. How are things?

2026-04-22    21:10:40 PM

I get in these spacey moods. Thinking about the moon. About what sunlight is made of. Using my software programming logic.

The sun is most likely making the moon bigger. I mean, I suppose it is possible for it to simply reflect off the moon.

The sun is making the Earth bigger at a massively regular rate apparently. It's highly likely it is doing the same thing to the moon and that is what is making it rotate around us. The moon is simply rotating like we are. It's just rotating much slower than we are because it is smaller.

I guess that is where this idea of "attraction" comes from. That matter attracts matter. I am not sold on that idea yet though. I'm still hanging on to the idea that it is all rotational. I keep on musing on the idea that the air would go to the center of the Earth if it could, but there is simply bigger stuff in the way.

Like a board or piece of metal. It's all attached in one big piece. The air can go around it, but it has trouble going through it. It eventually WILL GO THROUGH IT! Or at least tear it apart into pieces.

The farther up things go, the more room there is. The thinner the disbursement of elements is.

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I just did a bunch of programming on my blog tool. I've got a new window dialog now with my image folder selection history where I can choose sets of folders there instead of picking them one by one.

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These politics of our dystopian future advance each day with me, but the daily grind is fairly slow and it's difficult to not blend from moment to moment onto other topics. This really does seem like the biggest one time change in human history. I'm sold on this idea that we need to decrease population quite rapidly and that a simple war of killing old people is not the best way to do it.

But if our young generations are not having children, then it brings up the idea of "the meaning of life". What are we doing down here if we are not having children? And to compound the problem, we're likely going to be having a massive shortage of building supplies. You can see our building materials changing. We've got those composite, glued, "pressboard"/plywood I-Beams all over the place now. The big dimensional lumber of the past is gone.

Metal is all crazy alloy exotic now. We've certainly gotten chemically advanced!

And because of all I do, I have to believe that I am some kind of high level role model for a lot of people. This computer and music thing I do has the only input vector of electricity to keep it going. Music doesn't even need electricity. I'm perfectly content coding old arcade game clones. It's just that I'm older and have been running the rat race my whole life. Chasing a dollar like the Nirvana cover.

I've been good with it though. I sell some of my time to my clients and then I use the rest of the time for myself. I'm not a 9 to 5'er.

I've got Star Wars III on the other screen right now. I have 3 DVDs. It's reminding me of my scene when I got off of the streets and into that apartment in the fall of 2004. Really 2005 and onward. I use it as "digital inspiration". They put a lot into those movies! It's fairly commonplace these days I guess. All those video games. Do you really need to be chasing a dollar to do that work? How fair is it for some people to be able to go to college to learn to do that and so many other careers and then have some people who essentially have no good options but to do grunt work?

Obviously I think our economy is toast. What do you think will become of corporate advertising in an economy that doesn't give out paychecks?

Rachel....

2026-04-22    14:38:36 PM

Look, whatever this is. It's like what? There were 14 FEC certified US Presidential candidates in 2024? And I'm this dj4/u111 person? Yeah, there are only 10 numbers and all that jazz. What about my FEC number? C00-88-53-76? You should see how I marked up the copyright pages of my AA books. The 48^th printing of the 4^th edition?

Look, it's super freaky out there for me. I have no idea what is coming next. I'm just one little person. My metered internet is just about up, so I won't be posting for a couple weeks. My bills are paid and I've got some food here and plus $14 to last 2 weeks. I'm friggin stuffed right now, so I'm doing OK, right?

Nice new dress! These heels are AMAZING! Love them!

Definitely don't waste your money on a $10, 6 hole whistle. That's way too much work folks. You need to go travel. Invest in adventures and people. You definitely don't want to wind up being a math geek like me LOL!!!

* Pull up the OnPoint Credit Union saying "People are the Point" and put it next to that row of tents on the sidewalk with the older woman in the blue dress with a shopping cart and the young yuppie couple in the sun next to the distillation column on Mercury.

2026-04-22    06:17:04 AM

Good morning. Just refreshing the day count up top....

2026-04-21    19:56:50 PM

I've slept on the streets for 300+ days. In cars for at least 500 days, often in a subcompact car which had 3 cylinders.

Slept on the living room floor for hundreds of days.

And at 55 years old now, I'm realizing for the first time how important it is for digestion to roll over when you sleep. How is food supposed to get around all that tubing? You eat, it goes down, you go to bed, it rolls through your intestines, you get up and have something to drink and then you have a bowel movement.

It's one of the reasons for the 5 day, 40 hour work week. It's an engineering thing. Even in the 3 cylinder car, I was flipping around every hour in the back seat with my head on the passenger side to having my head on the driver's side.

Rachel

2026-04-21    18:46:09 PM

2026-04-21    18:45:41 PM

It is difficult to date me....

I've always been obsessive about my work. I work from home, so there is a constant work vibe around me. I don't make much money as my first career was a low paying music career and I never had a degree, so it was difficult to get good paying software work.

And I'm a transwoman. And I run for president and now face assassination 24/7 for the rest of my life. And I'm such a transwoman that I have more fantasies about having a boyfriend than a girlfriend. I'd like to say it is 50/50, but it does lean more towards having a boyfriend. I'm just very transfeminine and carry maxi pads with me.

Rachel

2026-04-21    18:40:37 PM

An interesting thing about my music is that I have barely ever played my bass on a bass amp.

I bought a pair of Mackie PA speakers a few years ago with the intent of playing with the RUSH cover band with Mike and George, but it didn't work out between us. They did come in handy for making those recordings with my piano, SP-404 and XV-88 in 2023 and 2024. That was fairly short lived though.

I had a tube amp in middle school. I may have played it a couple times in high school. I bought a Peavy bass amp in like 1990 and played on it just a few times. I didn't use a bass amp at all in Memphis (1993-1996) and that continued on in Virginia Beach until near the end of my time there when I bought a 4x10" cabinet with a Fender Bassman head. That thing was insane I I never even turned it up to "1". I left it in Virginia when I moved back to Oregon in 2000.

I recorded Dirty Pot on the mixing board with headphones. The two recordings I made before that, I used the Alesis Monitor One system. There was a mousing living in them in late 2001!

I lost my bass, that Fender 4 string with the toggle switch, in late 2002. I picked up the Fender 5 string in 2006 and used it with the mixing board and headphones mostly. I bought a pair of M-Audio X8B 8" speakers in 2006 probably and I got a lot of mileage out of those. I had them all the way up to the summer of 2024 when I lost 100% of my possessions.

Rachel

2026-04-21    14:55:00 PM

2026-04-21    14:45:56 PM

Like, what good is a dentist going to do you if you don't have dental floss?

What was I thinking? Do you think, that as a homeless person, you could just walk into any dentist and ask them for dental floss?

Rachel

2026-04-21    08:05:03 AM

2026-04-21    00:17:39 AM

Good morning....

If you don't want a "brutally honest" transwoman in the White House, then of course I understand. Just don't vote for me and I'll close Ms. Rand for President and then hopefully you'll buy my books. If you are not shutting down industrialism, then perhaps I'll get a bunch of sales and I can buy some kind of house with a piano and drumset. And a trombone that mostly sits on the stand.

I'm sick of being abused.

I'd love, love to be raped. It's kind of overplayed how I complain about being raped. It's just those Black Lives Matter signs. They remind me of daily anal itching for a decade before I learned to take showers 20 minutes after bowel movements. And my best friend, Sam Burton, has tortured me over Black Lives Matter in the last 6 years. He's completely tortured me and I will never, ever, speak to him again. And I blame the people in Portland for that because that's a pretty big loss for me.

But then again, I'm an out of the closet transwoman and I likely can't have a male friend like that anymore. It's just not feminizing.

If you have some vulvoplasty surgery planned for me, then yes, I'm down for that. I'm keeping the heart symbol on my id. You'll have to drag me out of here though. And you'll have to drag me out to rape me as well. I'd like both of those things. I really would. But I simply can't volunteer for that. I'm not strong enough or whatever you want to call it.

I'm sick of being abused. They, whoever they are, have turned every memory of my life that involves other people into a torture memory. The question is "who are they?" I like to put out a word of caution, because this has been going on longer than almost everyone around here has been alive. People talk like there is a war half way around the world. I'm obviously connected to the Asian people somehow. There could be a war over here if you believe there is a war over there. It seems like we are due.

It's probably just the end of industrialism like I say. I have no idea what a celebration is. I really don't. We didn't have birthday celebrations growing up and we essentially didn't celebrate holidays. I am not a parent and do not do well with parents. I don't want anyone who has been a parent in my inner circle, whether I am president or not. I am over parents.

That's what you have with me.

Rachel

2026-04-20    08:09:41 AM

Perhaps my strongest value as a president is my software research skills. I know how software works. My name is heavily associated with the concept of "money". I have extensive experience with extreme poverty and being a target of discrimination.

I'm heavily based on the zen of physical objects. We live in a material world, obviously. Life is that which needs something outside of itself to survive.

I've never known any of my neighbors since leaving high school. Nothing beyond saying hi as passing by or "Hey, there is something you should know about in the neighborhood." So, don't get paranoid about that with me. It's just the way I live my life. I'm heavily work oriented and music is just one thing I do.

Whatever you think about my transgenderism, please think of it as permanent. I do this balance with remaining healthy and remaining transfeminine. I don't know where this is going. I'm having fun coding useful software this morning.

Rachel

2026-04-20    05:19:49 AM

It's the whole "are you available to date" question....

I suppose the two that I know of are the if you have a ring on your ring finger, then you are not available. And then the thing with the Billy Joel song Allentown: "Well our fathers fought the second world war. Spent their weekends on New Jersey Shore. Met our mothers at the USO."

I live a pretty sheltered life. I have a lot of things on my mind.

There is the smoking thing. Asking someone for a smoke or a lighter.

There is that tattoo conversation starter.

This morning, I have these two dayglow plastic colored rings that I bought for binding my books with a simple hole punch. I've got two of them bound together and then put them on my left pinky finger as a ring. Like the idea that it's a positive signal that you are available for dating. It's like with the normal ring thing, you look and still aren't sure, right?

Proof Postive. ( It's a JJ Johnson album. JJ and Steve Turre are the only trombonists I listen to. )

Rachel

2026-04-20    05:00:25 AM

Good morning!

Uh, not to be demeaning to women with this photo with the woman making a milkshake. I just think she is amazingly beautiful in this photo! It could be me making scones. That scene reminds me of going to coffee shops in South America. Places where not many people are hanging out.

I feel like I've been trained to not tell anyone what to do. I mean, I'd love to have a couple employees, but mostly, I just want some authority to ask people questions wherever I go and get decent answers. It would be something.

I've tried to do this and it doesn't work so well. To walk into a business and declare that I'm a US Presidential candidate, or US Representative candidate, and ask them some questions. People really dislike politics and often declare "You can't talk about politics here." Or: "Are you going to buy something?" Both those are classics, right?

That's why I want this political thing with me to open up, big time. Quite literally for jets to be flying overhead when I walk into some production facility with my secret service detail. I want the truth.

I realized yesterday that it's usually US Senators who run for US President. That's why they have 6 year terms and not 2 year terms. I know there is a rule in Oregon that you can only run for "one major race" a year. I kind of fudged that in 2024, but running for US President isn't something you can sign up to be on the ballot for.

Rachel

2026-04-19    22:04:02 PM

"Quick to judge, quick to anger." - Neil Peart

Yeah, that's me right now. I'm just super paranoid and it's understandable. It's been a few years of tough social and chemical lessons. I don't know what to make of it.

Is our electricity coming from dams only?

Are there movies, like Hollywood movies, about building dams?

How many electronic items to we build in Portland?

How many unique parts are in a typical factory?

Where does each production facility get its raw materials from?

Rachel

2026-04-19    21:53:17 PM

You know, the hair has to stop growing somewhere. And in this case, it appears to naturally taper off a bit.

2026-04-19    21:36:58 PM

WOW! You should have seen how fast this little software fix I just completed allowed me to make that composite image and then resize it into this blog!

2026-04-19    21:00:57 PM

I tend to get mad when I feel pressure to perform on stage....

It's like what I do on the computer IS my performance. It's the "dj"-4 stigma. Like, I could do this on a stage. That's my solo music/computer/zen show. Some of the problems with it are how sensitive to sound I am. For some of this stuff, it needs to be completely silent in the audience. And that leads to why even perform for an audience?

It gets all psychotic like that. And believe me, I've been tortured in crazy ways. Do you know what it is like to try to perform on this whistle for $5/day? And then after earning $60, it becoming too cold to play and having to give up? And so many countless things like that. Needing a blanket and there just isn't a good way to get one, so you just tough it out. For months and even years. Where are all my bicycles now? Where is my manhassett music stand? Where are my TAMA microphone stands? My DVDs? Like I'll probably be restarting my DVD collection. I have 3 now.

It's the Superman III quote from Richard Pryor:

"We can't afford to have a chemical plastics gap." ~ Gus Gorman

Rachel

2026-04-19    20:45:02 PM

I put in a new feature to my blog tool and corresponding feature into the picture viewer. I'll get around to posting in the code section when internet is better. Got another fix to do to the picture viewer. It's that zoom resolution bug still to fix. I've got the layering working correctly now.

I go through software programming withdrawl. I love coding software. I love how my software programming works with my politics. I don't know how other politicians research, but I find myself using programming tricks when stuff gets hard to extract.

Rachel

2026-04-19    13:09:23 PM

INDUSTRIALISM: To make it work, we had to put the fear of failure into people.

2026-04-19    06:44:42 AM

I was trained as a musician, right? I've been running my solo website music show for 25+ years, right? Is it justice that I only made $100 at it? I can't even get a decent amount of sales to suppliment my income? When I was working as a software programmer?

My left wrist has some sort of buldge in it now. Probably that carple tunnel thing. I couldn't code software for a living anymore. I can still type and code, but not 8 hours/day. No way I'm going to be good at lifting boxes at the store. I can still haul things home.

I'd say at least half of the enlisted musicians I served with in the Navy had college degrees. Probably 1/3 to 1/4 of us were jazz improvisers.

You know. You typically hold a trombone with your left arm.

Rachel

2026-04-19    01:59:37 AM

I'm in a terrible mood, but my place is looking nice. It's always been terrible for me out in society. Nothing has changed there.

Rachel

2026-04-18    23:11:18 PM

Human relations is not my strong point.

I got my spring cleaning done. The new environment feels good. Everything outside is pure insult. I really shouldn't go out there. I guess I'll try drinking the water here to save some trips.

Rachel

2026-04-18    16:43:54 PM

It's a Saturday afternoon. I suppose I'm in the depressive cycle of this career/life of mine. Doubts. It's certainly understandable. I'm so far out on a limb. No family. No friends. Waiting for this insane election idea. Waiting for the possibility of true support for once in my life. Actual sales for once. Pressure to create more music. Like my politics don't matter at all.

Like I don't matter. Don't matter enough to feed anymore. Just kick me out in the cold and rain again like you all did before.

Rachel

2026-04-18    06:08:23 AM

2026-04-17    20:12:52 PM

2026-04-17    19:32:42 PM

2026-04-17    16:40:52 PM

I was on the bus today dealing with people torturing me and looked up in the corner where a sign said: "It's a felony to assult a bus driver." Wel....

Felony = Fell on Knee

It's stupid ass religious stuff. Like bow down and whore shit me instead of "get on knee". FUCK YOU STUPID ASS RELIGIOUS PEOPLE!

Rachel Lydia Rand

2026-04-17    16:27:08 PM

There is no use talking with anyone out in society anymore. Every conversation or interaction I have is a crazy insult.

It's that I have lived an amazing life, but I've come to realize that people have been using me as some world joke my entire life. BOTH of my parents had a wandering eye like Rodney Dangerfield ( the "no respect" comic ).

I'm sorry about this Death after Birth Law, but it's better than being in a Nazi concentration camp with your dead realitives stacked next to you, right? Better than picking cotton by hand, right?

Maybe things will turn around after the election? 31 days.

Ms. RAND

2026-04-17    07:09:30 AM

These are two beautiful pictures of two amazing musicians, right?

2026-04-17    06:44:22 AM

Q: How many times do I have to suffer hazing in my life where my bikes, musical instruments and computers are stolen from me?

Is there any way for any of you to relate what it feels like to spend years being homeless and then going to the only non-religious organization that there appears to be for help and they lock me up in a mental hospital for a month, put me on crazy bad medications and then they collect a paycheck to watch me do math all day?

And then have your best friend and wife tease you about it for 20 years. I fucking hate you hazers.

BLACK LIVES MATTER is a crazy hazing insult to me. Take those stupid ass signs down NOW! It's an involuntary trigger for me. My second wife, ENA ABEL wrote a catchy song lyric about that:

"Pick my butt, save for later, because later I'll want a treat." Fuck her. I hate her.

2026-04-17    02:21:38 AM

I hope I'm not keeping people up this evening. I know they have to get to the gym in the morning.

RAND

2026-04-17    01:54:39 AM

looking for the August bank receipt where I withdrew 19 cents and had a balance of 5 cents....

now looking for screenshot of non-existant book sales....

** I swear I'm going to fit this all on a 1x2' sign, or a song lyric, yet....

2026-04-17    01:11:10 AM

Get those homeless people off the streets immediately. Don't put them in hotel rooms. Give them the houses that are up for sale. Every god damn homeless person I see is another church that I am going to blow up with the military. I'm not going to DC for the scenery.

Ms. Rand

2026-04-17    01:07:18 AM

Q: What do you think a homeless person feels when they walk past your yard sign?

Q: How do you think I feel when I ask if you have ever heard of me?

Q: Who are you voting for?

Q: Do you know how to form a written word?

Rachel Lydia Rand ( No spell check on this one, I don't control what goes on your screen anyway. It has to go through the publisher's editor. )

2026-04-17    00:47:37 AM

I don't know what other people know. But maybe Gen Z can see what is going on with me and trust me that people have been doing this same stuff to me my whole god damn life. Why? Because I was born into it. Mandatory and 69. Those card games that we played in high school. Just like Sam has been teasing me about for a decade. "People were making fun of you RAND because your dad gave you such a big allowance."

Whatever. GO TO HELL SAM. I fucking never want to see you again. You are just a stupid torturer like Sting and the rest of those sorry ass religious people.

Rachel Lydia Rand

Y?

Because I'm not a man. I can't haze anyone. I would never do that on purpose. The only way I can haze someone is from someone forcing me to. Fuck you sorry ass men. I don't care if there is a good reason for it. You Christian people are murderers in my book and I want you all dead.

It's just the celebration of the end of industrialism tied to my life. I know that. Get a grip people. I hope you all rent a hotel room.

2026-04-17    00:35:51 AM

Society must need a lot of subjects like me to haze/torture to meet their college quota. This has been going on my whole life.

Ms. RAND

2026-04-16    09:34:25 AM

It was a big thing in the 1980's....

With the big concerts in the sports arenas, and on TV, people were complaining or criticizing that musicians were lip synching or faking it. And then it kind of mutated into this thing were the musicians were mostly dancing. Like they couldn't fake that, right?

It reminds me of the Star Trek original series episode called Return of the Archons where they had those enforcer people in pairs in their brown Jedi robes with their large hoods on. They had these rather large hollow tubes that they would zap people with to "absorb them" into "the body". And one time Spock like did his neck pinch on one of them and Kirk flat knocked the other guy out or something and Spock was looking at that tube weapon and I forget what the cinematography was on it, but it showed him observing that the tube was simply hollow.

Kinda like a trombone or my six whole whistle flute.

It's like when I look in the mirror. I'm pretty dang sure that is a good replication of me that I can trust. Especially if I can observe that the mirror isn't significantly distorted. I'll never be able to see the back or top of my head. I'll never see inside my own mouth or look at my own eyes.

Not sure what soda pop consumption was like for the people in my generation. After middle school, I didn't drink much of it until I was about 36 years old. Coffee was definitely my thing and I don't drink it at all anymore. I think I've probably had less than 10 cups in a year now. I'm avoiding all caffeine.

The term "electrolytes" is common in our society. It may just be electrically zapped water. I'm curious about induction cooktops. All in all, I'd say that HPS bulbs growing vegetables with hydroponics is likely the best thing that electricity can do for food. That's certainly a costly way to eat though. That's one of my main arguments for reducing population. We have the technology now, but I don't think we can do that for this many people. And a decreasing population will not be able to maintain all these structures.

We could designate some cities as cities to be "saved" and move populations there to have a few normal cities around the world. I'm not sure if that is a good thing or not. But it seems that population decline is the only reasonable path forward.

Ms RAND, Rachel L.

2026-04-16    09:10:47 AM

looking for the small talk eye contact IRL statement I made on reddit. Great! I've been doing a bunch of sorting into folders lately and it was right in my presidential quotes and jokes folder!

2026-04-16    08:20:26 AM

So this is the way nylon stretches without being latex sap. I had red that it is a product of oil. We just have crazy advanced sewing machines these days. And all this was before I was born.

2026-04-16    02:39:30 AM

2026-04-16    02:31:54 AM

You see, I was born to a sober member of AA and raised in a strictly atheist household. This concept of a "moral inventory" or just simply "moral" hardly makes any sense to me. I'm an innocent. I don't lie. Any lie you may catch me in is simply people hazing me. It's not that I don't get a little embarrased from time to time. I may be a little reluctant to tell the whole truth constantly. But I do not intentionally lie. I'm often accused of being "brutally honest".

Religious people and their precious little secrets.

2026-04-16    02:24:54 AM

What does "edify" mean anyway?

2026-04-16    02:24:19 AM

Good morning.

Ann's sister, Rita May, who got Ann her computers (and maybe mine) because she worked at CompUSA in Houston or Austin, always reminds me of that Beatles song.

Rachel

2026-04-15    18:39:32 PM

I think this research is compelling about the speed of the technological progression. This states that:

Airline Passengers per year in the US:

1960: 57,700,000

2010: 629,500,000

2010: 2,600,000,000 ( global passengers, about 32% of all humans ( not really because of repeat travelers, but you know) )

2026-04-15    17:03:19 PM

2026-04-15    13:54:58 PM

This is the Star Wars Asteroids font color, right?

So.... It's making more sense now. With this election and the fourth of July. The way I feel about it is that on the fourth of july, it's either going to be a simply celebration or President Trump and China's leader Xi Jingping (dang spelling!) and the other world leaders are going to announce that this capitalistic industrialism is over, or I'm going to be rocketed to this ultra-fame position with this May 19^th election and I'll be doing my ascent through our US Federal Government. The idea of me getting a rather large, in your face, secret service detail around me and I go on my tour and they do their normal lockdown of the businesses that I'm planning to randomly visit. And then I walk in there, as I am dressed right now and you know how that is, and as I walk into their lobby they get a little nervous and say "Ms RAND, I'll get the owner here right now." And as they step away from their recpetion desk they hear three fighter jets fly directly overhead.

You see, that's the kind of thing I need now to get the information I am after. It's not good enough that people know who I am and even tell me that they know who I am. I need them to feel it. The idea that this is dang important and we are in a revolutionary period of history and I want the dang truth from them.

"Chemically clean is for pipe fittings." - Miss RAND

....you know. Kinda like how we had that Goodyear blimp flying around a lot.

2026-04-15    07:02:15 AM

Good morning!

Been busy, busy, busy. Full of ideas. Desire to assemble my small team. Need for some genuine authority. If the 4th of July is the cutoff date for capitalistic industrialism, that doesn't really mean that I'm on the hook to play a gig. It would happen whether I am dead or alive, right? And there would still be need for government organization after that day, right?

RAND, Rachel Lydia

34 days

2026-04-14    20:30:58 PM

still looking for religious people keeping secrets because of strict interpretation of literature/commandments

Um, with this screenshot defining what the purpose of churches is, well, I'm not really against that. All I'm saying about it all is that I didn't grow up with that at all. What I have experienced with churches as an adult didn't do anything positive for me. So, I'm simply not a part of it. My childhood is what it was. I have my spiritual Zen practice. There are a few people who I have been close to in the past that know that side of me. My best friend Sam really doesn't know that side of me all too well. My first wife Ann, absolutely. Spencer, Shaun, Nate. A few other people to a lesser degree. I was absolutely spending a lot of time meditating in my room in high school.

It's just completely solitary for me. That's all.

2026-04-14    20:15:12 PM

2026-04-14    19:56:36 PM

financial disclosure, the non-profit image

They say that the main evidence that we did moon landings in 1969-1972 is 380kg of moon rocks.

28 grams in an ounce x 16 ounces in a pound is 448 grams per pound

380,000 / 448 = 848 pounds

I weigh 137 pounds today. 848 / 137 = 6.18

The main evidence that we went to the moon and back is 6 times my weight in moon rocks. Have you ever seen stucco? You know, that stuff they make the exterior of houses with? Just saying that isn't extremely strong evidence. Not saying that we did or didn't go to the moon, but it does seem like course correction up there would be difficult. Is the moon really pulling you in and around it? Without an atmosphere?

2026-04-14    05:03:31 AM

2026-04-14    05:02:04 AM

2026-04-14    04:39:43 AM

Good morning!

I've been up for a few hours doing my political work. I've got a bunch of software coding projects stacking up. I wish I could afford to hire someone to help me. Of course I wish this political stuff were just solved, but I do enjoy doing the work.

Rachel

2026-04-13    16:49:32 PM

"HAL-9000 was instructed to lie. By people who find it easy to lie. He became paranoid." - Bob Balaban in the movie 2010

My AA big book is the 4th edition which was made in 2001 and it's the 48th printing which was done in 2022. I have it marked up a bunch. It turns out that the personal story called The Vicious Cycle is excellent. Lots of tender moments in that one. Rachel

2026-04-13    16:10:20 PM

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2026-04-13    15:44:34 PM

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2026-04-13    15:37:50 PM

2026-04-13    09:57:49 AM

Some of my work from 2008.

RAND, Rachel L.

2026-04-13    09:54:28 AM

2026-04-13    09:48:41 AM

* Looking for pics of Half Pint.

FOUND!!

2026-04-13    07:46:48 AM

Good morning!

I suppose I'm musing on what success looks like. The secret service that I'm dealing with now likes to just lay on more and more insanity stress. If I win the election this way, it's reasonable to assume that a huge secret service detail may form around me quickly. So that when I travel, everywhere I go gets locked down so that there is no question that I'm the real deal.

I'm serious about business and our future generations.

RAND, just call me Rachel

2026-04-12    06:06:23 AM

Oregon Primary Candidates (major party only):
P = President
S = Senate
H = House (Just CD3 - the one RAND has been running in)

2024

DEM:
(P) Joe Biden
(P) Marianne Williamson
(H_P) Rachel Lydia RAND
(H) Maxine Dexter
(H) Ricky Barajas
(H) Nolan Bylenga
(H) Michael Jonas
(H) Susheela Jayapal
(H) Eddie Morales

REP:
(P) Donald J. Trump
(H) Joanna Harbour
(H) Gary Dye
(H) Teresa Orwig

2022

DEM:
(S) Ron Wyden
(S) William Barlow
(S) Brent Thompson
(H) Earl Blumenauer
(H) Jonathan Polhemus

REP:
(S) Jo Rae Perkins
(S) Darin Harbick
(S) Samuel Palmer
(S) Jason Beebe
(S) Chirstopher Christensen
(S) Robert Fleming
(S) Ibrahim Taher
(H) Joanna Harbour

2020

DEM:
(P) Joe Biden
(P) Bernie Sanders
(P) Elizabeth Warren
(P) Tulsi Gabbard
(S) Jeff Merkley
(H) Charles RAND Barnett
(H) Earl Blumenauer
(H) Albert Lee
(H) Dane Wilcox
(H) Matthew Davis

REP:
(P) Donald J. Trump
(S) Jo Rae Perkins
(S) Paul Romero
(S) Robert Schwartz
(S) John Verbeek
(H) Joanna Harbour
(H) Tom Harrison
(H) Frank Hecker

2018

DEM:
(H) Charles RAND Barnett
(H) Earl Blumenauer
(H) Ben Levine
(H) Eric Hafner

REP:
(H) Tom Harrison

2016

DEM:
(P) Hillary Clinton
(P) Bernie Sanders
(S) Ron Wyden
(H) Earl Blumenauer

REP:
(P) Donald J. Trump
(P) John Kasich
(P) Ted Cruz

2014

DEM:
(S) Jeff Merkley
(S) William Bryk
(S) Pavel Goberman
(H) Earl Blumenauer

REP:
(H) James Buchal
(S) Monica Wehby
(S) Jason Conger
(S) Mark Allen Callahan
(S) Jo Rae Perkins
(S) Timothy Crawley

2012 (likely incomplete, from Ballotpedia)

DEM:
(P) Barack Obama
(H) Earl Blumenauer

REP:
(P) Mitt Romney

It's nice having the fan on at my place. It really drowns out that traffic noise and that's much better on my nerves and productivity. A strong, noticable, secret service presence may be a welcome change too.

RAND, Jo Rae Perkins and Joanna Harbour seem to be the main repeat major party contenders here. I have not researched Jo Rae Perkins yet, but Wyden will be up again in 2028. I thought I saw Gary Dye in a Senate race? We may have two openings in 2028, right? :-)

----

** Less than 1 in 100 federally elected politicians are not in a major party (DEM/REP). Non-major-party candidates are not the path to a super majority. Centrist politicians are.

Q: Am I fiscally conservative and socially liberal? Or am I socially conservative and fiscally liberal? Am I for traditional values or am I not? Am I for democracy, socialism or communism?

If you don't want me, you don't want me. It's insane to me to hear the political rhetoric and think that you would elect Jeff Merkley over me. I'm obviously possessing some kind of trump card. Dad took us to Reno Nevada yearly. To the MGM Grand. And we would go to Circus Circus to play arcade games. And the MGM Grand had 24/7 bowling.


Am I religious or am I not? Am I spiritual? Again, my world view is that we created all this stuff and large population mostly for the development of technology, not the stuff itself. At least as far as the future generations go. There is always work to do.

I have survived pretty well on a diet with a cauliflower, spinach, an onion and a cup of rice a day. All crops need water. HPS lights are amazing, but they do suck the energy. Squirrels and birds are living off the land well. Little pine nuts and berries and berry nuts.

2026-04-12    03:28:28 AM

If we have gridlock in congress, we have business as usual.

If we have super majorities in congress, we have revolution ( otherwise known as "out of our comfort zone" ).

Miss RAND

2026-04-12    03:22:38 AM

* Research Ballotpedia for oregon primary elections. Notate all major party candidates (the only ones to ever get elected) in primaries and general election.

Q: Do wind turbines work?

Q: Is natural gas being used for utility scale electric generation.

Q: Is coal being used for utility scale electric generation.

Q: Does nuclear electric generation work?

Q: Were missle silos ever built?

Wikipedia: Bowker Publishing Services - myidentifiers.com

ctrl+N will in Windows explorer will open a new windows explorer at that location

typing "cmd" into the windows explorer address bar will open a command prompt at that location

Windows Explorer said that I had 88 screenshots to transfer from my Android device this morning.

When I deleted them off of my phone after the transfer, it raised a confirm dialog that said "Are you sure you want to delete these 82 items?" After confirm YES, it left me with the 6 sticky pictures I normally keep in that folder. The deal is that it told me that it was transferring 88 pictures, but I didn't have these 6 selected.

Q: Did Artemis launch? Isn't it ironic that I was having limited internet at the end of my monthly period as they said the mission was going on? I didn't see any news of it except for a couple emails I got from news organizations. Artemis is the name of the moon mission in Superman II. I have never read a comic book of any kind. I did read the comics in the Sunday newspaper growing up. We used the newspaper to start fires in the wood stove. You can start fires with a paper grocery bag and put your vegetable scraps and other trash in the vegetable bags.

Get a return slip for the Amazon slippers. I should have gotten the smaller size.

Conical drum sticks are not very fun to play with.

Computers with fans in them apparently cause interference with analog to digital converters. That's why the MOTO I got in 1999 had no fan and connected to its proprietary (apparently) PCI-321 (or 123) card via Firewire cable. The MOTU was still powered by a normal, 3 prong, electronic power cord. The MOTU M4 is good enough for my purposes, but the Mackie ProFX12 is difficult to remember how to use. I used the Mackie 1402 mixers for 26 years. Their interface is easier to understand because the 6 XLR inputs are all the same and the 4 stereo pair inputs are all the same.

2026-04-12    02:52:00 AM

* note to self - looking in images for the model number of the Roland GO:KEYS3 music stand attachment

Roland MRGKS35 Music Rest

Good morning!

Whatever they have going on around me in this neighborhood is getting more and more distressing for me. People act as if I don't exist. They act as if they don't know me. They act as if they know that I am a big time presidential candidate but will not interact with me in any tangible way. It's pure insanity for me on the streets.

My mindset this morning is that perhaps if I reach this grand political success in 37 days, that I'll simply buy a motorhome and remain alone. With a large secret service detail around me. That where ever I go gets swamped with secret service locking down the scene so that there will be absolutely not doubt that it is me walking into a business in my best dress, heels and purse. Walking in alone with my secret service enterage.

And then I can relax in my vehicle using my wok just outside. And interact with my Gen Z team virtually. "How is that research project going? Can you upload that to my server?"

Rachel

2026-04-11    03:14:45 AM

Good morning!

Q: Is this the Hot for Teacher election?

2026-04-10    19:01:24 PM

It's a ridiculous song lyric:

"Love is all you need." - The Beatles

Yes, love and a little bit of natural gas to cook with, to burn to stay warm and to make nitrogen fertilizer to fertilize the crops to feed 10 billion people. It's all love, right? Would you enjoy having love but not those other things? If we are out, we are out.

"Fresh out." - Jeebz in Men in Black

"I ran out." - Peter Weller in Naked Lunch


"There are some things I enjoy about this gig. The low pay isn't one of them." - me

Miss RAND

2026-04-10    18:29:22 PM

People seem to be struggling financially to pay for daycare and the yard maintenance crew, so I've decided I'm going to suggest congress to implement a 48 hour work week so people can have some more, uh, disposable income....

2026-04-10    18:10:18 PM

Q: Do you like fans?

2026-04-10    09:50:28 AM

Good morning! How was your sleep?

Uh, so much on my mind. As usual. I guess I will simply get back to work right now. I'm in lawyer mode....

Miss RAND

2026-04-09    16:35:47 PM

iCpotatoes_TM

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2026-04-09    05:18:04 AM

Good morning!

I'm dealing with limited internet here. It's been slowing me down and that is a good thing right now.

I was in one of those moods this morning that could have sent me in a spiralling rage event, but there is a calmness brewing in me. That maybe some form of monetary wealth will take hold here. That I may buy products with my own money again. Food, clothing, shelter, healthcare.

Perhaps it will be hundreds of thousands of book sales? I like this idea that we did this population growth/boom thing to develop the technology more than for the structures themselves.

I was walking down the street yesterday, just two blocks away. And I lookup up the street at all the cars parked there. I think I saw 30 cars. Possibly more. That's like a million dollars of metal right there. The seats have some non-metal in them. There are the plastic panels. Plastic fuel injectors. Some rubber hoses and tires. Glass. Wire casing. Paint.

OK, things are going good, right? Just posting and checking out the day count. I declared on 2-24-2026 that I'm just mostly waiting at home now for the election to conclude. That was day 84 and it is like 40 or 39 today.

Miss Rand

2026-04-08    21:14:39 PM

Hello!

Well, it's the last three hours of 4-8-2026. I've had a great day! My new long black dress and kitten heels are wonderful! I feel great! I washed the cover to my futon and it came out great! Did some shopping. Cleaned the floor of my apartment. I'm trying to clean the floor daily for a while to ensure that it is going to not fall into the old pattern. I'm still kind of new to this place and I've obviously been working massively.

I read through my ms-rand page again this evening. It's a total keeper. It's a lot of words, but wow, I nailed it. I should be be treated like a president out there. This is completely ridiculous. I'm not saying that I am the president or that you have to elect me. I'm simply saying the I am presidential quality, through and through, and should absolutely not be having to deal with this type of poverty. I have those music | books links up top. I don't see any reason why people should not be buying my books so that I may buy their products.

So, I'm sticking up for that.

There is nothing more I have to do to justify myself and my encore career. I continue to work my magic, but I am just waiting here folks. That stuff is Ben Franklin quality. Founding father. Moving into a new economy. So that feels good. I've done a good job. Waiting for the reward of that. Mainly clothing at the moment. I understand the need to have me working with these super limited budgets. I'm teaching and studying my routines.

Miss Rand

2026-04-08    07:37:22 AM

Q: Can tides be detected in a fish tank inside? They could be the water warming and cooling from the sun and other related currents.

I find it interesting, this world geography stuff. "Our World" The East Pacific and the East Atlantic.

2026-04-08    00:46:21 AM

Good morning!

I just tried to upload the changes here but my metered internet usage for the day was used up immediately. "They" have me on 4.5GB/month. Hey, I almost made it to the end of the time! Just 3 days to go. I've even got like 100MB left.

I think it's more training. I'm making it OK with my $298/month food budget. Maybe starve the last day or two. The new extras/clothing budget has been expended pretty quickly, but I'm really in a much better mood here now. Wearing my new kitten heels right now! I've got my standard nylons and I'm experimenting with some thigh highs. I don't like that rubber stuff on the thigh highs. I love garter belts. The problem with them though is underwear. I enjoy attatching them. I enjoy putting the buckle on with the dainty heels. But the underwear thing with garter belts is annoying enough to well, be annoying!

I was practicing some air drumming in the kitchen a few minutes ago. Doing the even quarter notes in my right hand and the improvised eighth syncopation in my left hand while thinking about RUSH's song Vital Signs.

So I guess no uploading of the post until Saturday. I'd say it's still a good bet that although this wireless technology is good, wifi and fiber are still where it is at. When the power goes down, it's impossible to connect on the cell tower.

2026-04-08    00:30:54 AM

40 days....

It sure would be nice to be supported. Sell a few books. Buy some clothing.

2026-04-07    14:52:40 PM

If people don't buy my products, it's a sign that people don't want me on Earth. That is not suicidal. It's homicidal if anything because it leaves me in a position of saying "What makes them so god damn good?"

2026-04-07    14:42:54 PM

Here is a story about a youngish woman with an older man....

I served in the Navy band with Jane. Jane was married to Bob and the three of us would drive 30 miles up to Richmond VA to do mountain biking together.

Jane and Bob met in Guam. Bob was the leader of the band and of the 13-17 bands in the Navy, he was the only enlisted leader of a band. All the rest were commissioned officers. I believe Bob was a masterchief then and likely retired after 30 years of service after his time there.

Jane had a college degree and both of them were trumpet players. There was likely at least a 20 year gap between them.

I remember one day Jane was telling me that she had to go up to The Pentagon for some business. Like we were planning a bike trip or something and she couldn't do it. right?

Shaun complained about her hazing as the three of us went on the South America and Africa tours together. I too am against hazing of course and Jane was an instigator of that, but whatever. She was always crazy nice to me! Jane and I had a lovely steak in Rio while the majority of the band went up to "Jumbo Jesus". Kinda as you head out of the city on the SW side.

Jane went on to be a band leader herself as a commissioned officer and she is retired now after 30 years as I would be too. Ann was in competition with her for the female US Navy Band leader thing, but Ann defected to the Virginia Symphony and started hanging around with their conductor, Joanne Faletta who also conducted 4 other symphonies. I think three of them were in NY. And Ann was taking private plane flights with Joanne and world renown cellist Yo-yo Ma. And what do you know, my mom is also a cellist and my aunt is an ethnomusicologist with some focus on ancient flutes and she talks about knowing the Dali Lama and how former Washington Governor Jay Inslee is a blood relative of ours. And there is the "Jay" and "Lee" connection there. Jay is a tenor sax player in NY who is part of our HS music family and the last time I saw him was in Portland when Sara (one of my HS girlfriends who became a lawyer and a Supreme Court hopeful of mine) took me to see him. In 1992. He was playing this pattern in all 12 keys:

B C Ab F

Just saying.... Firewall, Gen Z | Gen Y

Was it Dr Silberman or one of those cops in Terminator I? "This Terminator came back through time to kill her unborn son. Kind of like a retroactive abortion heheh"

Rachel

2026-04-07    02:42:31 AM

If you work out this calculation, only 17% of Earth is habitable or available for agriculture.

Q: Do hurricanes/typhoons hook into South America or do they just hook to the North in the Atlantic and Pacific?

My brother was a professional quality bowler in his high school years. He had a massively cool hooking strike ball! I'm good at getting spares and can roll a bunch of 180 games, but I'm just really stiff with it.

Uh, the United States has a sober candy raver for a president?

2026-04-07    02:25:25 AM

Good morning!

It's amazing how my learning just continues. I got a wonderful new dress yesterday and the month's supply of nylons, so I'm in good spirits. Also had fun with some music stuff yesterday and food stamps came in, so the food crisis has abated once again.

I likely would not recognize a Red Hot Chili Peppers song if I heard one. Pretty much the same thing with Nirvana. I obviously know a thing or two about Star Wars and Ms. Pac-Man !

2026-04-06    16:27:45 PM

I'm in the classic politics business. ( think Benjamin Franklin )

Miss Rand ( just call me rachel, duh! )

"Who are you people?" - Miles Dyson ( T2 )

2026-04-06    02:51:11 AM

Good morning! How was your sleep?

I woke up at 10pm and decided that was way too early.

Then I woke up at 1:40am to the thought "transient". So, the transient population. Wondering if in post industrialism we'll have a voluntarily transient population?

And those thoughts went back to:

1. Am I simply delusional or dying soon?

2. If not, doesn't this motorhome idea make the most sense?


The intellectual problem I keep having is this idea that people see me as an emerging rock star. Or even worse, that the rock star musicians are disappointed in me because I will not detransition and/or become someone who plays my own lyric driven music onstage with large crowds. It's a form of guilt/shame that is driving me crazy right now and has been for some time.

But, picture it like this....

Hotel Political Tour

Me and my team decide we want to visit XYZ business onsite to ask them some questions and see their production line so that we are doing more than simply calling them on the phone and trusting them like a college text book.

We book a hotel room. We get in an Uber to the airport. We fly in, grab our luggage including my music gear. We get in a Lyft and get to the hotel. Up to our rooms past the front desk. Go down to the lobby or order room service. Perhaps take a little nap and of course a shower.

Then we break out our computers in the seperate rooms to do some more research work. The HR person checks in on the status of the street campaign. The researcher is working with me. My partner has some thing she is working on that is likely unrelated to what we are doing because I am in need some grounding home life around me.

I break out and do some music and be silly with my partner. My team takes some playful downtime too. We get through the night this way. Then it's back into an Uber to get to the business. We get there and ask for the restroom. We ask our questions and we get lucky and they show us some stuff. We take notes on paper or electronic devices. Back to the hotel room. Planning our next stop.

So on and so forth.

The Motorhome Tour

Well, by now, this should be making sense, right? We are by the side of the road in an airport type area. Observing plane traffic and I get my team to make some notes on frequency of planes. I'm in my commmand center in my motorhome and my partner is doing some organizational things in the kitchen. I'm researching businessness nearby and see some interesting things. I send my research person my ideas via our wifi connection on the software I coded in 30 minutes a few days ago.

My researcher is on it and commented how exotic it was waking up in this location. My researcher is posting using the software I'm writing this on now, to our internal server using PuTTy. We decide on a business to visit that is a 15 minute walk away so we decide to make the trip soon.

I have tell my team that we'll have to delay the trip 40 minutes because of my current need for a shower.

Then we head over there and strike out. They don't want to talk with the ego maniac transwoman senate hopeful. Rachel thinks they are crazy wanting to continue their rat race lifestyle with the product they are making. My team is getting some interesting world view from all these interactions. It's a lovely day and we are enjoying our walk back to our command center.

We hang out there for a few days. We bake a pie in the oven this evening. My partner and I bed down with a lovely movie and I'm getting silly again playing songs on intruments in bed and doing some recording with that system. She's pulling up some image stuff on the other monitor.

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So, it's that kind of thing. Hotels can be a huge drag on time and productivity. Not that we wouldn't do that some, but this is commander in chief business. If we get through this phase, to the presidency in 1,000 days, then we will be continuing this routine, but we'll be setup on Air Force One or simply in the White House and on Camp David doing the phone and video call thing using my custom software.

Before going to sleep, I was reading Geddy Lee's book and with how he was talking about the days when they were doing Signals and Grace Under Pressure. And how it was straining his marriage with his young child. How Nancy didn't like the physical move to the countryside that they did (because of security problems before the move, she liked the city better). The growing new battle of the SYNTHS and Sequencers in the music scene and how that played out with the producers. All that electronic new territory.

How Geddy Lee was enjoying that playing out on the RUSH songs like The Weapon and Losing IT. Some drama they were having with Subdivisions and their producer. Then the motorhome tours and his talking about them using cars in the 1970's. The same kind of experiences I had in my 20's with checking into the hotel and trying to get some sleep. The unproductive downtime. Catching a movie on the motorhome while it's moving with the occassional jarring pothole.

The main thing I picked up on with the difference betweem my idea of my political/music tour and their music tour was that they were racing off to the next gig the next day while I'm a much older, high level politician who is organizing an improvised daily schedule with lots of productive time without that traditional arcade game time crunch pressure.

I see this motorhome tour playing out more like how Geddy Lee describes his studio time instead of how he describes his touring time. I've been there, done that.

I obviously know what I am doing and what I want.

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Q: Campaign finances and business structure?

Well, before going to bed, or perhaps when I woke up at 10pm, I got on my little phone that is mounted to the TAMA boom stand again and typed into Google: "Are 501c3 non profits driven by public financial disclosures and not really about salary limits for their employees?"

Well, it indeed said that it is mostly about financial disclosure as there is no hard limit on salaries, but that the IRS does monitor salaries and will call them out for excessive salaries.

The idea here is that non-profits don't have a product. They are driven by donations. Similar to political candidates. My position with my campaign and candidacy is that I need people to trust me and get on board in a public way to show that trust. I'm after Super Majorities. Not just in my campaign, but of course in the Senate and executive levels. The idea is that we are changing massively and will destroy gridlock in congress.

It's not about the money.

We need the super majority of people to acknowledge that this change is correct and is happening. I'm just one little person no matter how much work I do and where I go. What do I know? Well, the fact is, that I may know more than the majority of people out there, but I'm still just one kooky person and obviously no one is supporting me all too much. But you may soon see your favorite celebrity people endorsing me saying "Yeah, this thing Rachel has going on does make sense. I've seen these things with the factories too and have spent a few months in the Philipeans."

I think we do need this political thing.

That it's not a simple celebration. My personal gamble that it is not a simple world party this fourth of July. And that leads back to the transient population problem. Will people choose that lifestyle voluntarily? What about my vision with all these empty office spaces now? We've got these office buildings in all our suburb type areas in the US forntunately. We can have our computer system dole them out to musician type people and they can set up their little scenes there and they can be kinda sparce so that it doesn't become too loud to get anything done. Like that band rehearsal building I saw in Portland in 1991.

It should give rise to some brand new culture stuff. Stuff that will evolve or perhaps degrade into a more scavenger type existance. So, we've got it pretty good, right? Want to see the world? Go accept that draft notice. Got more exciting plans at home? Send in a request to pass on the draft commitment. Get called up anyway? Yes, do your commitment and see how this food and clothing stuff gets done. It's awfully disorienting to be wondering how it's all done.

It's all going to be good. Even if I'm just crazy ass delusional, I think we need some people doing the work I'm doing and I love doing this stuff. Not sure how many other people are doing this kind of thing? I may be the only one. I sure hope people hop on board with me. But of course, only if the timing in history is correct. Not really my call on that one. I simply go to work each day in case this kind of thing is needed. It sure seems like I'm making progress and doing the right thing.

Rachel

2026-04-05    16:12:32 PM

We'll see if I win this election. We'll see if anyone wants to be supportive of my products. We'll see if some money rolls in so I can buy some clothing and a couple other hardware things like a music stand and microphone boom stand. We'll see if anyone is interested in joining my elite team.

We'll see if people respect my decisions.

We'll see where we have teamwork and where we don't.

I'll eventually get a good show when I die, even if it is pretty brief. Doing fine today all things considered. I feel better after doing all this posting. The stuff about Sam especially. He has been super disturbing to me over the last decade or more and it just keeps on stacking up with him. I love him. I really do. I just have no trust in him. I can't tell if he is lying or not. Or how much.

I can't tell how much society is organized to lie. From what I sense now, it's like a huge thing and I can't fathom how so many people can keep secrets.

This drawdown of industrialism might as well be the biggest event in the history of our solar system and it feels like it is falling on my shoulders in a massive way. It's too much for one person and certainly way bigger than a normal presidency. I'm doing OK all things considered. Learning some fun things every day! My gear here rocks and I'm sure I'll come up with some new music recordings soon. I've got some clothing on the way, so we'll see. Feeling good in nylon stockings every day.

It's interesting how nylon works. It can stretch more because of how it is woven than the material composition itself. They say that nylon is an oil product, not a rubber tree sap product. Each little stitch is a square loop with three sides and when stretched, those stretch out to straight lines. It's amazing stuff like that!

I wonder how this is all going to work in the future? And of course there is the somewhat scary "restless native" aspect to an 80% unemployeed "workforce". We'll see about that too, right?

Miss Rand

2026-04-05    09:55:12 AM

2026-04-05    09:53:43 AM

Wow, it actually made me feel better writing all this hateful distressing stuff here yesterday and posting it. These stories about my best friend because wow, this is all very tortorous stuff for me and I can't even begin to describe it without exposing all that stuff.

He's been teasing me for decades about the gambling in high school. Saying that people were just taking my money because my dad gave me a big allowance. Well, before I was driving, my dad was driving me to music lessons, concerts and rehearsals every day and night. In middle school and early high school. Once I had a car, he needed some relief from that, so he gave me some money so I could do my thing.

But the story is obviously huge. The idea of "How did the high school band and Portland Youth Philharmonic get all that money to fly us around the world?" And our directors association with professional basketball because he was 6'6" and all that. And if you know him, I guess it's reasonable to think that Marcus Miller may be a relative of his. And that goes back to Miles Davis and Sam is telling me lately how much he does not like Miles. But you know, he's a saxophonist.

Playing saxophone is difficult. And I know 3 professional trumpet players who have blown apart their head from all the pressue. Really even more than that.

"That ain't working. That's the way you do it." - That guy from Dire Straights

Maybe get a blister on your, uh, thumb? Or in the case of Rachel, that little finger with the pink nail polish pointing out from the end of her coffee cup!

just rachel

2026-04-05    04:35:52 AM

Good morning! (again) How are you?

I'm just fully transparent like this. I feel that my friends and I are just really high level and these stories need to come out. All they can do is kill me anyway, right?

My three high school girlfriends:

1. Sara - (became a lawyer) - Took me to see A Clockwork Orange in a theather that is part of some museum (so not a normal commercial theater). It's a movie about rape.

2. Marge - (became a lawyer) - She was a freshman when I was a senior. We had lots of sex and she said that our having sex relieved her migrain headaches. She was wearing those braces that had the metal wire holding them together. I wanted to do oral sex with her and she did not want that but I was like "how do we know if we don't try?" So I came in her mouth in a way that she spit it out. I'm not sure what this does to people. It may be bad for their teeth. I want to have this done to me now. I'm just really curious about it and I've had some amazing sex a couple times with a man.

3. Jenn - She was a year older than me in school, so I was with her, then Sara, then Marge. Jenn came back from college and said "Look what I learned in college!" And she gave me a blow job and sucked me dry!

I've never asked for oral sex after all that. Not sure what it does. I haven't seen Jenn and Marge since high school, but I've seen Sara a few times over the decades. She tends to come into town from NY and we'll go out to coffee.

Ann and I stopped having sex before our wedding. At least that is how I remember it. If not right then, then very soon afterward. I was married to her for 7 years. The lady I was with after her was more than 30 years older than me and was an amazing lover and woman. And then from 2012-2019, I was with two women who were 18 and 20 years older than me. These three older women rocked! They may have been at the end of their lives and wanted to have sex again and go out that way? We were like grown up kids together! Just madly in love and having the time of our lives. Not much money, but you know, living in a house together. Going on adventures. No 8-5 schedule to deal with. Dinners out at a restaurant at 4pm. Shopping with "the old folks" at 10am and then going home and I'd get a few more hours of programming work in and my daily thing with Sting.

2026-04-05    04:05:32 AM

2026-04-05    03:33:02 AM

It's the RUSH idea from their song Closer to the Heart: "Each must know his/her/their part."

You see, I'm not trying to insert the idea of violence into politics. It's thrust upon me and I simply do not know what to do with it. If you want to know why, I suggest you ask former US President Barack Obama because I don't have a clue about these cultural politics. I'm all physical objects engineer about it.

I do have a religion of sorts. A concept of God every time I play music with the overtone series and do math with the trigonometric tables. And I have this kooky idea of assembling a small team of Generation Z people, whom I call my "inner cabinet" and starting off with them in two or even three motorhomes where one of the things we will be doing is measuring pi several times and using a few techniques to work out the trigonometric tables ourselves.

I have a bunch of "projects" like that. Stuff you could do too if there really is a time when there is 80% unemployment and you are getting a little bored with the video games or traditional bar/sports bar culture.

There is a sign here, at Woodstock Park, which says "No Recreational Vehicle Parking". So another thing that I'll likely do is post some official US Presidential Candidate signs on there so people know, if they go to tow or ticket the vehicle, that they are not recreational vehicles, but work vehicles. We will be spending a lot of time trying to figure out, on our own, which products we can and want to make still in the drawdown decades. I seriously doubt we will be making any more yard tools and you know how I am about keeping brooms in good condition. Just because I'm under high stress and duress right now, doesn't mean I normally have problems with taking care of my things. I'm not perfect and there is a lesson in that too. Not being born knowing all the intricacies of the Nine Exemptions to the Freedom of Information Act.

"They were planning new ways of cheating." - Sting from his song Miss Gradenko (I remember that Marge liked that song.)

"They know you,
they know me.
Extrasensory,
Synchronicity." - Sting (from Synchornicity One, I'm finding a lot of personal meaning in that one lately.)

2026-04-05    03:15:45 AM

Good morning!

Do remember you parents doing any thing for New Years? I can't seem to remember any New Years celebrations growing up. I've noticed that there is a thing with the fireworks going off at midnight that scares the animals.

2026-04-04    21:19:45 PM

What is hazing? Well, it's spurring the horse. The horse really doesn't spur the human, so I guess it's good the be the horse. I don't want to spur anyone. I'm so angry, I went to stick a fucking skewer down someone's throat. Through the side. I just realized the other day that dad had a deadly weapon like that in his electronic tool box. It was pretty sparse and junky in there.

I realized lately that these men who carry those leatherman type tools likely have some knowledge of them being deadly weapons.

As a female, I'm trying to train myself to just accept that and not take weapons with me. They likey just want to rape me if they want me at all and who wouldn't like to be fucked? I have been raped in an unfun way and I've had amazing sex with men.

I'd love for some man to take me on a real date. Like offer to take me out to a nice meal and want me to dress up all nice. And he can come over and I can ask him to put my necklace on so I don't have to do that myself. And I can feel his fingers on my neck. And I can ask him to shave my neck so I don't have to position all those cameras or mirrors to try to do that myself and mess with all those reverse angles.

And not feel pressure to play music. And he can treat me gently that night. To comfort me because I'm under such high stress.

But it's freaky. On reddit the other day there was a question "would you date a transwoman" and most people said no, but there were a couple who said yes.

The instruments are nice here. Sam, my best friend, was playing the "miracle keyboard" at his mom's place at the beach 18 years ago. The one with the half size keys. That's what he told me. With his little dog who would pee and shit in the house on the blue pads.

But the Roland keyboard here is quite good. Runs on 8 AA batteries. Nice to have an electronic instrument that doesn't need a wire. Like my bass without the pickups but it's got the braided hemp strap that has the tail on it, kinda like a cord.

I like the eccentricity, I really do. Sometimes I think that they are treating me well. Like an animal in a cage. Their horse, whoever they are. The American people. The Russians, Arabs or Chinese. They just spur me and we're like a team like that. One day they may put me out to pasture and I can just watch my movies in peace. Maybe even on Camp David? I always wonder about that place. The Marine One ride there. Like get socks on the helicopter? ( He's the first cat in the 90's. )

Well, wow, I saw some beautiful cats on my walks today. I'm psychotic. Just a whipped horse. Like out in town, with the rope tied to the pole out front. I'll just be there naked strapped to the pole waiting for my date to get back with some nice cold ginger ale and some pourage for me.

I've got the AKG C3000 on the shock mount on the TAMA_tm boom stand ( It's the brand with the NixTAMAlizATION. The thing with the palegra disease and the corn that I keep on reading about over the decades. "If the corn cob fits" and all that jazz. ). ( Don't forget to close those curly braces, right? )

What kind of software president do you think I am anyway? I like to be taken out on the town. I'm just too big for the buildings and I have a special diet. Duh!

And I'm skittish.....

Rachel

2026-04-04    18:44:59 PM

People are just actively hazing me. Have been for years. I'm mad. I want them to stop. I'm powerless. I'm scared. Scared that they will kill me. I want to carry stabbing weapons with me and burn down buildings because people do not respect my work.

I interpret that they want me to man up and be a fighter.

They haze me to get me to man up and be a fighter.

And it's reasonable to assume I won't be seen as a valid citizen until I kill someone on the streets. That must be what they want. They monitor my every move and will make some show out of it when I make my move and they'll beat me to it and say "I got her. She's actually a male idot musician. Those lousiest third trombonist the planet ever had. Thinks she can be president and tear down our lovely capitalistic democracy with all our nice hotels and sports stadiums. We proved that she is delusional and there is not problem with declining natural resources. Bicycles are for whimps. She should have done what max did and eaten a lot of steaks, gone to the gym, do the office work, get the degree, get the girl, have a baby, get the fatherhood bonus, get the surgery so you can see your grandkids, be sure to guilt your child so they will have one, or two. Rachel had it all wrong and now she'll finally get the mosh pit that she really wants. The citizens breaking her bones, leaving her in screaming pain with all her friends spitting and pissing on her. Then we'll use the big laser to take off her limbs, insert and IV to force feed her. Strap her in a chair and make her listen to all her friends, like all the Yellowjacket's songs that are actually her best friend Sam Burton on tenor sax. He actually was lying to her all these decades and was actually rich AND famous and was not buying two houses on VA and SSI benefits and having a child and a gamling addiction with the suicide of his step child who hung himself and then the murder in front of his house and the car that was stolen when he went out with the black hooker to get a fun night on the town before insulting Rachel in her home who was running for US President with Eric Powell, like the bookstores and street names here, who comes to Rachel's home saying "I'm concerned about you. I'm taking you to the mental hospital." Like what, did Barack Obama want me to "man up" and grab my hand, stone sharpend butcher knife and start cutting his fucking neck because she is Scared that her best friend will invite her to the jam session again and tease her about becoming a computer programmer rather and being a real musician playing on the big stage with the SSD money in 2006?

Where does this insane story end?

WTF?

Are you all just trying to get me to decapitate another cat to prove that it is better to use guns than knives?

Or walk in freezers?

What exactly do you have to do to live in this city? Does everyone make cars, houses, bridges and skyscrapers here? Or are they all busy managing people?

Have you had your best friend come to your house unexpectedly at 8pm saying that his car was just stolen from the guy he was doing meth with and that he needs to go to the store to get a six pack of beer and then spills it on your couch so you send him to the couch in the garage next to the hand build classic arcade machine with just two or three of Rachel's hand coded games on them and then wake up to find that he has put cigarette burns on it?

And you think I am ungrateful when I rip up his stupid ass letter about his stupid ass Catholic whatever it is? I have had enough! I don't care if that recording that I love so much is SAM BURTON or BOB Mintzer. I just don't want to see him EVER AGAIN! I want to be respected. I want to get paid $61,000/year as a presidential/senate candidate and then I can assemble my own team and hire and fire my own people for once in MY GOD DAMN LIFE.

Is that manning up? Or womaning up? Your fucking humanity is fucking disgusting. I fucking HATE HUMANS. You fucking music weirdos!

YOU HAVE NOT HEART. BURN in HELL with your fucking meat dinner asshole AMERICANS.

Sincerely,
Your Communistic Zen US Presidential Candidate
Rachel LYDIA Rand
musician
software engineer
author
bicyclist
woman
human
victim
lover
chef
baker
janitor
maid
non-manager

I guess "they won". Those sports ass holes. Barack Obama. Donald Trump. I can't name anymore because I don't watch sports. I really don't. I don't think I've seen a single Micahel Jordan play.

I listened to my own music while going to the library to get water today. So I could blot out as much of you ugly ass humans as I could. I can't believe you have made me hate this much, but wow, you are all really good at what you do. I hope you are struggling too hard with all that hazing you do you ass hole americans.

2026-04-04    18:05:25 PM

Q: Is it a sign of strength to be tortured for years and decades and not be mad about it?

How do you fight an invisible enemy?

Is full contact sports/politics fighting?

Is music fighting?

Is sports fighting?

Is doing the laundry fighting?

Are you fighting with your partner over money? Fighting over who's turn it is to walk the dog or do the dishes or the ironing?

If people want you to fight with them and you refuse and then they don't buy your products and starve to death and they claim that you are not insane once you are dying but were insane when you needed help getting out of the rain after multiple rape damage events, from your musical "friends".

Does Social Security exist? Do you have to have an 18 pack of beer at home to claim disabilty as a musician who is actively recording and running for president?

Is this punishment for decapitating a cat? Or retribution for President Hitler running some freezing experiements on human animals in the name of science and a good meal?

Q: Have you seen my best friend's girl with the swastica tattoo? The one who sleeps at his feet like a dog?

"Who are you people?" - Miles Dyson

You betr believe it. - Rachel

"4u, the truth" - Geddy Lee - Tears

The Sun Don't Lie - Marcus Miller

a is to the sin(A) what b is to the sin(B) what c is to the sin(C)

How do you think things are made around here anyway? What, did you all have sex parties at the Star Trek conventions and then went to a class to learn how to group haze Rachel Lydia Rand for 30 years? I'm like Sarah Connor in T2 by the elevator: "What the fuck is this? What is going on here?"

I'm fucking freaked out by all this. - Rachel Lydia Rand

2026-04-04    17:46:09 PM

Interesting fact just came to mind. My roommates in 1990-1992. Ian, Collin and my brother. I don't think I drank alcohol with them even once. A few weeks after I turned 21, I was living in an apartment of my own and Kevin asked me to buy him a beer.

Most of the jobs I have had since then have had people at work asking me to go out to drinks after work. And Sam, my best friend, had me out to the jazz jam sessions and to strip clubs many times. If I have any regret at all in life, it's saying yes to any of those. I should have said no, every, single, time. I enjoy marijuana and psychedlics, especially when I was young, but alcohol is a no go for me. I started drinking some this last decade because Sting said that he would go back to his hotel room and drink. So I thought I would try to be mellow with that and give it a try.

I never got drunk on it. Kept it to 2.5oz a night 10 days a month max. Tapered down more than half after a year. He also suggested "getting out of my comfort zone". Well, I hope it's helping other people because all it has done to me is wrecked my life.

The transgenderism and my skills, and a little bit of gear, is all I have. And no one seems to value it at all. And I'm completely tortured by all the memories of people asking me out to church, drinks, gigs, strip clubs, sports pubs, concerts.

You see, I really am a stay at home, traditional housewife. One who makes music, cooks, cleans, likes to dress classy, likes a happy household. And I run for president, but we'll see. This is terriblly distressing work for a sober atheist transwoman who is suggesting that industrialism, capitalism and essentially democracy is over.

It appears to be the dawn of some new human experience, but what do I know? I'm just one little person who is completely stressed out about trying to have enough money to buy a second pair of shoes. Feeling pressure to feel love while I make that purchase with people laying pizza in the rocks where I walk.

To me, it's just a sadness of humanity. And I simply want to get away from the sound of all these cars. My mom's name was carmen.

Rachel

2026-04-04    17:26:51 PM

The torture I'm feeling with this Easter thing happening tomorrow is the same torture I felt on the US Navy ship going across the equator. Hazing.

My medical record in August of 2004 says that I came to them for help with getting off of the streets. Is housing healthcare? I certainly couldn't have been working harder. All my jobs were abusive and sexually discriminating. Just hazing events.

I'm tired of being bullied and hazed. If you have to kill me to get out of this hell, please either do that or buy my products already. I won't do any construction work for you. I believe that you will all realize how grossly overbuilt this place is in just a few years.

I was born into a sober atheist household. Asking me to go out to drinks or church is a crazy insult to me. Please do not ever do that again.

Sincerely,
Rachel

2026-04-04    14:22:25 PM

If there were no cars on the road and the road hasn't been paved in 35 years, which would be more safe:

a. motorcycle
b. mountain bike
c. electric scooter
d. electric bicycle
e. road bike

I was told that the girl I went on my first date with died in a motorcycle accident. It's my understanding that most bicycle deaths occure because of cars. I have a musician friend who was seriously damaged riding an electric scooter. I flipped a small car because it had too much power.

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I'm just in constant portfolio/proving myself. This happened with my software programming too. This thing with my politics is like 2006 for me. I had coded an online, 4 player Scrabble game, a Backgammon game with a computer opponent and a causual game that became my Flick Bricker game in 2007. The year the iPhone came out. And I still couldn't get a job coding software. I was hired in March 2007, as a contractor, for $25/hour. I submitted my first two week invoice for $1,190. It might have been $20/hour. My website then had the "WAVE Sequencer" on it. A webpage that had a keyboard on it and made a .wav file using .php. And the Backgammon and Scrabble on it. And the sliding tile puzzels. My collision detection was coded 3 years before that.

I don't know how "they" pay you for your work, but they lock me up for doing my work. They shame me for playing other people's songs. Like the best music in the history of our solar system. I have to deal with Sting posting about how hard it was for him to break into the music business at the late age of 27. His stories of hauling gear up stairs and sleeping in flea pits. And I'm so gullible, I believe that crap. And I have stories of me playing 5 different instruments on my website and living on the streets for a year without shoes, a briefcase full of math which is now my presidential logo and people abusing me and raping me.

Sting had a hard life. We do not like money in politics in the USA. Definitely against corporations and their TV commercial sports salaries. The Chinese and their dang mp3, Awia cassette players and pioneer sound systems.

People just want to be rich and not famous. Take the money and run. Build a nice garden out front. A chicken coup in the back yard and the freezer finishing room in the basement. The contract with the grain supplier and the Chinese HPS (high pressure sodium) bulb manufacturers.

It'll all be fine if we can reduce population now. I think it's the right call.

Miss Rachel

Blue Nunn Nitrogyn Sodium Pressure Productions_tm

"Reflection on the water." -Neil Peart

It does get complicated, right? The credits at the end of Star Wars. The blue on black. Then Asteriods a couple years later at the corner store.

2026-04-04    13:38:48 PM

I tend to forget that people hear music in church. I've never been to a church with anyone in my family. I was BORN ATHEIST. And it's kind of like that line by Samuel L. Jackson in the movie Pulp Fiction: "My girlfriend is a vegetarian. Which basically means I'm a vegetarian too."

It's just the way I am. I simply have no concept of Christianity that is any good at all. There is no desire for me to learn about it. I hate it. I hate you all. Is there a place on this planet where you Christians don't go?

2026-04-04    13:27:16 PM

Shame me for spending money on clothing after having $23 in a whole year. Shame me by not buying my $2 products so I can't buy your $2 products.

Shame me for being a part of the UN instead of the US with my Canada, India, European, South American, Austrialian, African loose virtual friendships.

I'm just mad now. It's caused by extreme poverty. People not liking my products. My 87 page one page political website. They want/need it condensed down to 3 verses. And I'm the only one who can do it.

Rachel

2026-04-04    11:35:10 AM

2026-04-03    20:29:26 PM

It's insanity running for president and dealing with the personal budgeting I'm doing. The $23 in almost a year budget. Now having $294/month and not really knowing exactly what I'll need for utilities because of the "arrangement". After my money completely exhausted a year ago, my supplies are almost completely gone. It was a crisis and this money came in just in time, but it's crazy limited. Unlike it was when I was working, although I had tight budgets for sure.

I'm simply a poor trombonist mostly. One who is not willing to play gigs. I hate being mad about all this, but I must stick up for myself and my art. I've made fabulous music in the last couple years. The only thing that makes sense is that we are indeed running out of latex sap worldwide and I've been revisiting extreme poverty for several years now so I can get a grip on how we will give "allowances" to 100% of US Citizens and eliminate the old monetary system.

And it's crazy delusional because I've been locked up so many times in the last few decades. Being called delusional. Having to hold back information there for fear of them never releasing me. Having them and everyone else compare me to your average "on the streets" drug addict. Having the feeling that people want to kill transwomen and want to call me a drug addict because of my transgenderism.

My hate of theives.

Needing to get the same one-in-a-lifetime items, over and over again.

So, I've been watching T2 over and over and over. I'm like Sarah Connor in the mental hospital. "But no one believed her." I'm like John Conner. "She'd shack up with anyone to teach me to be this great military leader.... I have to stay functional too. I'm too important."

2026-04-03    12:28:31 PM

Q: What's the difference between John McCain and Rachel Lydia Rand?

A: John McCain could tell you who was torturing him. And you'd probably believe him.

2026-04-03    12:17:09 PM

2026-04-03    12:13:46 PM

This is just a really solid blues melody that I enjoy playing.

2026-04-03    12:12:44 PM

I'm kinda holed up in the bedroom again like this. It's funny ;-) I'm thinking of going "back in the closet" by emptying all the papers and boxes out of the entry door closet and then going in there with a candle and the phone on the boom stand. Like in my nylons and maternity top and like my bass or whistle and make some videos!

That's the good part of my gig. The part I'm not giving up.

Rachel

2026-04-03    12:05:00 PM

It's just really stressful on me. It's all this bold thing of suggesting that our world situation is like this and that I am able to help out as US President and Leader of the Free World. It may happen.

It's hard to describe the torture in it all. The gaslighting. The passive agressiveness. You can't talk to anyone about this stuff. They have locked me up time and time again and I wasn't even telling them half of it for fear that they would never let me go.

Rachel